Dear Boy that Made Me Feel Worthless,
From the day I met you, you've made me laugh endlessly. It's like it was impossible for me to get tired of you. Even through a simple text , just thinking about you made me smile like crazy. We clicked instantly, like I already knew you inside and out. You seemed to know how to look into my eyes and make me feel special. You made me feel as if I was all you ever wanted.
As time went by I learned something new about you and I absolutely loved it. When we got that chance to hangout, oh boy, I would think about it at work or even while checking out at the grocery store. It's safe to say you were too good to be true. I knew I could be my weird self around you because you were twice as weird. I knew what you liked and what you didn't. You were my go-to when days where rough or even on good days. The surprise Facetimes I received made me fall for you more and more. It really was the little things that made everything so special.
I started to tell my friends about "this boy" , thinking it would actually go somewhere. Everyone wanted to know who you were. Who was this guy making me so happy? Honestly I don't know who that was. The distance sucked but you made me feel as if distance wasn't in the way, as if you were still into me as you were day one. And...then just like that, you dropped me. You let me go. As if I didn't mean anything to you.
For days you had me thinking on what I did wrong. What did I do to make you leave me? How was it so easy for you to just forget about everything...me especially?
Knowing someone could leave me just like that made me process my actions through my head more thoroughly.I knew I had to learn how to let go. It sucked. I couldn't let go of someone so special to me just like that. Letting go of someone can truly be heart-breaking, it's almost as if someone you cared for so much just vanished. I eventually somehow let go, I blamed myself for the longest time, but truly it wasn't me. I am slowly learning how to love myself more and more everyday, thanks to you.
You were not a mistake, but you making me feel worthless was. You lost someone special, someone who cared for you too much. Thank you again for teaching me how to love myself.
