Hey you, the boy who started off my friend and became so much more.

Here we are back at square one, friends. You were the upperclassman that caught my eye more times than you knew before you even knew who I was. I was the freshman eager to be in my first college relationship. I couldn't wait to have someone here for me, because we all know high school boyfriends don't last in college 99 percent of the time. I couldn't wait to see you around campus, hold your hand, or go out on weekends with you. I couldn't wait to dress up all fancy and have you be my date at formal.

But things don't always go as planned.

Our relationship started off so great, all the butterflies and "honeymoon stage." You said it best, though, it faded quickly. We fought all the time. Half the time I claimed you drove me insane and I hated you, but the second I saw that smile I couldn't help my heart from melting. When it was good, it was so good; unfortunately, it was bad more than it was good.

Now that it's all said and done, and now that I know we weren't meant for each other, I can look back and smile at all the good times we had.

Thank you for the flowers and chocolates on Valentine's Day, and thank you for holding my hand ice-skating, even when you said you wouldn't, because I was a hazard to the both of us. Thank you for being my friend before you were my boyfriend. Thank you for taking me on an actual date because you wanted to. Thank you for walking to my dorm at midnight because you could tell I was upset.

You were everything I thought I ever wanted in a guy. It hurts seeing you around. It hurts thinking about all the fun we had and what we no longer have. It's going to take a little while before I won't have a moment of panic when I see you out of nowhere and the tears swell up in my eyes, but that's just the way I cope.

It almost hurts more knowing that we broke up because it just wasn't working. I know you said there was nothing I could do, neither of us did anything wrong, but sometimes I still think I could change and we could make it work.

We both deserve people that will be our perfect match, and we just weren't each others. I really, really hope you find someone someday that appreciates how amazing you are. You care so much about people, and I didn't always see that, but I hope they do.

So, once again, thank you. I miss you, but someday things will go back to normal. We'll hang out again, bust each other's butts, and be the sarcastic assholes we came to know each other as.

And just clarifying, I didn't break up with your cat; that's still going strong.