To the boy who broke my heart and taught me a lesson,
Thank you. Seriously, thank you.
Obviously I would have preferred you hadn’t, but you did. There’s that saying about meeting people and how they're either a blessing or a lesson- you were both. At one point you were a blessing but quickly became quite the lesson.
What we had was good at the time and we were happy for a while, but sometimes things have an expiration date. Looking back I can’t even remember the reason or why we decided to end things. It doesn’t really matter anymore. But I do remember that it hurt, bad. You walked away with a part of me I had so willingly given you and it was a part I knew I would never get back.
Investing yourself in someone else and taking the time to get to know each other as well as being vulnerable is terrifying. But I did it with you, for you. Don’t get me wrong we had some great times and learned things about each other that I don’t regret, but moving on from you was harder than I had imagined it would be.
To cope and process the sadness you made me feel was a journey of self-discovery. I realized I was capable of being alone, but more than that, capable of being happy while being alone. I got to branch out, got to go out more with my amazing friends and overall got to actually start enjoying life. There was no more drama of dealing with our nonsense fights and bickering, it's just me doing my own thing. I began to do little activities here and there for myself for the first time in a long time and it changed me for the better.
It took you crushing me to realize that I’m actually worth something and that I am an important person. Ironic? Yes, I know. You made me feel like I wasn’t good enough for you and if you didn’t want me, who would? I still get pangs of sadness and miss the better times we had but then I remember how much better I am on my own.
You were an important lesson of self-worth. And for that, I thank you. You taught me I don’t need someone else to make me feel like I have value, I do on my own. You made me realize that I shouldn’t settle and should wait for someone who treats me the way I deserve to be treated.
I wish you the best on your journey of life and appreciate the time we shared but more importantly I appreciate you teaching me to love myself even without your love.
Once again, thank you.
Sincerely,
I look SO good without you
