Better or Worse, Blessing or Curse

Was fooled again, as I start to mend

there aren't any friends, there's only trends

a thing people like. and you think you might

its always on your mind, invading dreams at night

but in the end, trust breaks it don't bend

a lot of time lent, and I'm the one that's spent

tricked to think, your sky was shaded pink

but it was dark in a blink, and in the blackness I sink

from there I was alone, shivering in the cold

as my heart turned to stone, and my body, skin and bone

but the fear now has left, and everything I kept

keeps my fight at its best, and separates me from the rest

but when it hit first, then it was the worst

half my family was in a hearse, like god put me under curse

but now looking back, I thank you for the smack

across my heart it cracked, now I know I needed that

it woke up my mind, lead me to find

my own way in time, and soon I was unblind

and now that your gone, I can sing my song

for what I believe belongs, and what I think is right and wrong

before I was trapped, judged off the bat

from looks and not fact, and body ink tats

looked at as a fool, an alien and a mule

carrying your esteem like a tool, that you used to drain my fuel

but as I said before, I'm glad you used the door

now I know when it rains it pours, and the secret for my cure

I enjoy the lesson learned, the trust that was burned

the loving feeling turned, to and end never earned

for better or for worse, a blessing or a curse

for every lesson learned on earth, there's always a first