No one likes a broken-heart (I assume).
I'm sure most of us have had our fair share of broken hearts (or will in the future).
But I don't think we reflect enough on what it's like to break another's heart.
I don't know if you have, but I have broken hearts. Hearts I wish I had never broken because it either ruined a friendship or because I know what's like to have my heart broken.
Breaking someone's heart feels like I have broken a spirit. Or a piece of them that was once pure, but then tattered because I told them, "I'm not interested."
When someone breaks my heart, all I am left with are unanswered questions. I never understand why they are either out of love with me or were never in love with me to begin with.
Was I not attractive enough?
Was I not smart enough?
Was I not funny enough?
The moment someone breaks my heart, I question my worth.
I can only imagine how the other person feels when I break their heart.
When I break someone's heart, I feel as though I have questioned their worth. And I never want someone to feel less than what they are truly worth (everything).
This person who you wish you could love because they bring you chocolates when you're sad. Who tells you you're beautiful every morning. This person who would do anything for you. Everything about them is great. But you know that you can't pity-love them.
But you remember what it felt like after someone broke your heart. You cried. You couldn't eat. You couldn't sleep. But time would pass by. Time may not heal all the wounds, but it's a step to recovery. You are not the villain.
You have to understand that your choices will affect others, sometimes. But you deserve to be happy. Your choices affect you, obviously. Any choice you make should be towards your happiness.
So stop beating yourself up.
They will get over it someday.
Just like you got over your love interests.
No one deserves a broken-heart. But no one deserves false-love, either.
Be proud of the brave choice you made. You are one step closer to love. And so are they.
Maybe they'll break someone's heart and understand your point of view. But remember to not beat yourself up. They may have loved you more than their favorite food, their favorite place in the world, etc., but you love yourself a little more.
Maybe one day, you will find someone who you love, just as much as they loved you.
And who knows? Maybe that person will love you too.