I always seem to be in a hurry. I think it's probably my biggest fault in life. When I was little, I was in a hurry to begin kindergarten. Fast forward a few years, and I was ready to begin high school. Fast forward a little more, and I was anxious to begin college. Now I'm dying to get out. The funny thing about all of these times that I was in such a hurry to begin the next phase of my life is that now I look back and wonder how time managed to slip by me so quickly. Wasn't I a little girl just a while ago? How did I manage to let myself rush through so much?
I've always been told that time is irrelevant to God, and I believe it. Seconds, minutes, hours, years and centuries are nothing to a God of eternal limitless. Yet, for some reason, I feel as if He should stick to my schedule. I want him to follow my own calendar and play by my rules, except that's not how it works. My man-made "deadlines" mean nothing to him. So why do I try to put God on a schedule?
Some people dwell on their past. I'm a future-dweller. I have my entire life figured out—or so I think. I know when I'll graduate college. I know where I want to go to grad school. I know where I want to live and what kind of job I want for the rest of my life. I know when I want to get married. I know how many children I want and what their names will be. I even have a Pinterest board planning every last detail of what my future house will look like. There's only one problem: I'm still just a college student, and most of those plans are nowhere in sight. And, if I'm being honest, those plans of mine will all probably change a trillion times along the way.
Maybe you're like me. Maybe you have tried to plan each detail of your future. Whether you're young or old, we all want to feel like we're in control of our own futures, but here's the real question: Have you become so obsessed with your future that you've neglected your present? I know that I'm totally guilty of this. I think that's how I've managed to let my life pass me by so far. I'm too worried about tomorrow that I forget about today.
I've decided I want to be a present-dweller instead of a future-dweller. Let's face it, we can't change our pasts, and we can't get too far ahead of ourselves either. If you live in any time other than the time which you are in, your present fades into one more passing moment that you've missed out on. I, for one, do not want to reach the end of my life and wonder why I let myself forget to live each moment to the fullest.
So, here's to now. Here's to today. Here is to living life to the fullest and not rushing. Here's to being intentional about the future while remembering to let God handle things on his schedule and not my own. Here's to being a present-dweller.
"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." - Matthew 6:34
