A Star Is Born Needs To Contain Trigger Warnings
Start writing a post
Health and Wellness

'A Star Is Born' Triggered My Personal Trauma, But The Story Still Needs To Be Told

Even though it stands as one of my favorite movies, it came at the wrong time for me.

458
'A Star Is Born' Triggered My Personal Trauma, But The Story Still Needs To Be Told

Just to be clear, for those of you who have yet to watch the movie, this post will contain spoilers! Along with that, I do want to note how desensitized the word "triggered" has become in association with how our culture has transformed. In this post, I mean to use it in the most serious of terms. I hope this article comforts those who have had similar experiences with media triggers and trauma.

I watched "A Star is Born" right after I had found out a good friend and co-worker of mine had committed suicide. I wasn't expecting to hear this news...I was in shock for weeks, maybe even months. I went to my shifts at work — shifts we had originally worked together, and felt a pang of emptiness. We weren't that close but now I think about him every day. This month marks a year since he left us and a year since I first watched the movie with my family. I really didn't know what to expect. I barely knew the plot of the movie, just that Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper were love interests. Overall, I thoroughly enjoyed the movie and have watched it since, but it definitely came at the wrong time for me.

Jackson Maine's suicide was a huge shock. I felt everything so deeply. I felt like I couldn't shake the feeling even after we left. I didn't want to sleep alone with the thoughts that were going through my mind. I felt anxious and paranoid, I didn't want to be alone. I started to not trust people. Like a toddler acting out when their mother leaves, I became paranoid when people left me. I feared I would never see them again. I lost so much sleep over it. This is also not the first time I have experienced loss involving suicide. I won't go into detail out of respect for my former classmates and friends who struggle with that particular loss, but that moment of my life has stuck with me.

It's an unnatural feeling to register and work through.

This movie triggered a raw feeling in me that reminded me how much power film and other art forms can have on our emotions.

Having these reactions does not make you a weak person.

It only reflects your empathetic nature, which is a rare thing to possess. A friend always reminds me that the longer we ignore the problem, the bigger it becomes. I wanted to acknowledge my trauma so I can heal. I'm getting better every day, learning how to respond to these triggers in a healthy way. I know my limits and surround myself with people who are sensitive to my trauma. I think that is the most important part, making yourself vulnerable to your friends and family. Gaga and Cooper did a wonderful job bringing out raw feelings of grief, and it truly resonates within me. I find it comforting to look back on this experience and see how far I have come from it, leaving me a stronger and more empathetic person.

If you or someone you know is experiencing suicidal thoughts, call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline — 1-800-273-8255

Report this Content
Featured

Every "Scrubs" Fan NEEDS To Know These Dr. Cox Quotes

Dr. Cox may be the most sarcastic, snarky, and nasty person to ever cross television screens.

225
Every "Scrubs" Fan NEEDS To Know These Dr. Cox Quotes

Dr. Cox may be the most sarcastic, snarky, and nasty person to ever cross television screens. His long-winded commentary and ability to destroy just about anyone made him terrifying and hilarious. Once you broke through his tough persona, Dr. Cox was genuine, caring and dedicated. He wanted the best for his patients and his interns. Here are some of funniest, most sarcastic and downright mean lines that Dr. Cox has said during his stint on Scrubs.

Keep Reading... Show less
Featured

Patriotism doesn't end with Independence day

If you can be proud of your country on he 4th of July, you can be proud all year long.

5499
Patriotism doesn't end with Independence day
Photo by Rob Martinez on Unsplash

I'm the child of a Marine Veteran. He may have been out of the service by the time I was born, but the Patriotic Pride he lived by has been my family's life line. I grew up with the American Flag hanging in my front porch. My dad has the "Proud to be a Marine" license plate in the front of his car. And red, white, and blue is a completely acceptable way to decorate your living room. But it doesn't end with just that. You need to know why we celebrate freedom.

Keep Reading... Show less

According to Katy Perry, "Baby You're a Firework." I don't know if she was referring to the Fourth of July when she was referencing fireworks, but this song has allowed this generation to rejoice. The song "Firework" allows people of all ages to appreciate the lyrics, as the song brings forth a positive state of mind. Unfortunately, just like the song, not every knows what the Fourth of July is actually for. Many just assume it is that one time of year you get to spend time barbecuing and see fireworks light up the sky. Even though many are not aware of the American historical significance, this holiday has annually encouraged people to come together happily, which could very much be the importance of it.

Keep Reading... Show less
Featured

Why Fourth Of July is America’s Biggest Frat Party

It’s the celebration of our great nation, and you’re all invited.

4057

It’s the celebration of our great nation, and you’re all invited.

Keep Reading... Show less
Featured

10 Revolutionary Women To Remember This Fourth Of July

The patriots of the American Revolution aren't the only ones who gave us the rights to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.

3752
10 Revolutionary Women To Remember This Fourth Of July

Independence Day is almost upon us, which means that for most Americans, it'll be time to bust out the lawn chairs and grills, gather around family and friends, and praise our history through patriotic garb and grand fireworks displays. It's the one day of the year where everyone forgets their political biases or historic inaccuracies, at least for a while, to look back on the hazy, illustrious history of the United States.

But, while we celebrate what people like George Washington, Thomas Jefferson, and Patrick Henry did for this country, they are not the only ones who embodied the very virtues that our nation loves to advocate for. This Fourth of July, here are ten American women who history tends to forget, despite the groundbreaking things they did for their country.

Keep Reading... Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments