Sitting down to write this article I have discovered I am bored... I am bored with life, I'm bored with politics, with music of the day, and even with writing these articles. Perhaps that is why I fell in love with punk music, most punks or punk bands are direct results of boredom. Life seems all to mundane to me, and honestly much of it feels like a bore. I just as well have finished up my employment at a local grocery store, and I have to say it felt quiet lifeless most the time. I have no problem with working hard, I actually get a-lot of pride from it. I just don't know if I could live a life of 9-5 like most people. Boredom has slowly crept into my life since a young age as I would sit in school and couldn't help but dream of a time where I would have freedom to be doing what I wanted to do, which was make music. I know making music and designs don't have the security of a comfy desk job, but I'm willing to take a risk to escape the boredom that has begun to suffocate me. I love my friends but most of them don't feel this need to explore like I do, they don't understand my boredom and see no need for creativity in the ways I see a need. I want to get lost in subcultures and music scenes, to find my own hang outs, to explore the east side like my parents did when they met each other. I want to push the envelope knowing its okay to fail, as long as I am creating and attempting to escape the boredom that haunts me. I even at times bore of the things that help me escape this boredom, I don't think we ever can escape the boredom, which in a sense is quiet beautiful. Sometimes ordinary is beautiful sometimes it is good.
Life seems so mundane at times, I wake up go to work, maybe hang with a few friends. Sit down to write one of these articles, and than I have a choice to write about something that excites me (which most people won't care about), or write something that other people will eat up, but I myself feel more inclined to write rather than excite. I don't know if I am really supposed to be writing about how these articles have become a bore, and my style has been very unconventional for this platform but maybe what I have needed to say has been said, and maybe the stuff I want to talk about will only fall on deaf ears. Either way I am always looking for people who feel the same way, who feel like there is more out there, who love to create and explore and are not scared of failure or ridicule. Who are bored of the way people expect them to deliver their thoughts or the things they are expected to say. Also a note to whoever will be editing this please leave it unedited, I know there are errors and I see a few myself, I just feel that it works better in its raw form, sometimes things need to be given to us in their raw form. I have not read through this after writing it, I feel no need to, I have already moved on myself.
