Hey There Anxiety,
I know we haven’t talked much in the past few weeks, but can you just stop showing up when I least expect you? I mean sure, if I knew you were coming, I would be less stressed. I am unprepared and you are a dear friend of mine. I need to make sure I am in a suitable atmosphere for you. I should clean up my room, fluff all my pillows, and cuddle up in my blanket. I know how much you like to be cozy.
You and I may have our differences when it comes to handling situations, but honestly, I don’t need your input this week. Finals have started and I can’t focus on anything other than school and work. I’m sure I will have time to be with you next week, but your sudden attraction at the most inopportune moments is really unhealthy.
Why do you come when I am stressed? Couldn’t you come over when something good happens to me? When I get an award or get published or even when I finish my homework?! Alas, it seems like I just can’t get rid of you. Could you at least try and be helpful? Maybe try and be comforting instead of antagonizing the situation? No? Well okay then.
Look, I didn’t want to have to do this, but you have left me no choice. I think we should take a break for a while. It's not you, it's me. (Well actually it is you.) When we first met all those years ago, I thought life would be better. You opened my eyes to a new side of the world that I had never seen before.
You were the one thing I could count on to be by my side through the darkest of days. Where did things go wrong? You’ve given me a lot of stress these past few weeks and it needs to stop. Unless you can control yourself better or tone down the stress, I can’t be with you.
Ok yes, I know that sounded a bit harsh. Well… very harsh, but it's for the betterment of both of us. Would you want to constantly hang out with someone who pessimistic on every outcome? Yeah, I didn’t think so either. Maybe once finals week is over and we go back home, we can talk again.
I hope you aren’t too mad at me and I hope we can rekindle our friendship another day, but you have caused so many of my recent nightmares that I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t need your pity and I don’t want you feeling bad either. Because you are not useless. You are very important to me and I can’t imagine my life without you. You make me who I am today and make sure that I have all of my stuff when I leave my house. You make me double and triple check my surroundings, and I am very thankful for that.
I can’t wait to see you again.
Sincerely,
The Person You Constantly Torment
