Who knew that the time for me to be done with freshmen year would be over just like that? Not only did this semester fly by so quickly, the entire year just flew past me. I still feel like I’m supposed to be in high school, I mean I sure look the part. I’m so glad Oakland gave me all these lifelong friends I get to call mine but I’m so sad I have to leave them in four short months. I wish I could take them with me but that’s not possible especially since their life is set in Oakland.

Thinking about everything that happened this semester is overwhelming me to the max. I had so many problems come up and then go back down. I mean I’m very thankful that I had the opportunity to stay at home and go to school, but part of me wishes that I could have started my journey through college at MSU like it was planned at first. There are so many choices that I regret making and people I regret meeting, boys specifically.

Nevertheless, I’m very happy that I stayed at home but at the same time, I do indeed regret it so much. I just wish that things went differently compared to how they went especially when to came to meeting some people. Like the things I said or they said, I just wish was never said. I wish I had never answered when it came to how I was approached by some people. But what can I do? Everything happens for a reason, right? Maybe I had to meet those people that I met, maybe I had to go through a depressive period because I ended up coming back a stronger person? Well, whatever the case is, I’m torn about how I feel about this all went down.

I’m really upset about all the pain I went through, but I’m glad I didn’t face it alone and that I have supportive people by my side and they watched out for me and came to my help when I asked. After I posted my story, a girl I went to high school with texted me and said she’s here for me and that she understands what I’m going through. I can’t tell describe how much that means to me. I don’t remember having a class with her since freshmen year. No matter how long it's been, it shows you who is actually there to care for you and who isn’t.

Anyway, I’m so glad school is over with this year. Sorry to everyone else who is stuck until May; at least there might be a high possibility you don’t have to be in school for 10 more years, unlike me. I’m so excited, I told my friend today, I barely made it through freshman year alive, HOW IN THE WORLD AM I SUPPOSED TO SURVIVE THE REMAINDER OF UNDERGRAD AND GRAD SCHOOL? I hope I can answer that question in 10 years unless going to school kills me.