People go in and out of your life all of the time for different reasons. Unfortunately it's an aspect of life, but does that really make it any easier?

One of the most difficult things in life I have experienced thus far is letting go. Letting go of anything in life can be hard, but letting go of a person you once loved, perhaps is the worst of all.

The strangest feeling in the world is looking at someone you once loved, and not knowing them anymore. Not knowing the person they've become, and not knowing what happened to the person they used to be, not knowing how the hell you got to this point.

You've been gone for sometime now, but there isn't a day that's passed where you haven't crossed my mind.

There were a lot of ups and downs between us over the years and the off and ons , but one thing is for certain; I never gave up on you. I only wanted the best for you. I was there for you, when it seemed like no one else was, when it felt like everything was falling apart, when your life got thrown upside down. But somewhere in the mix, life got in the way.

I wondered why I wasn't enough. Why after all of the memories, the years, after everything it wasn't enough to make you stay. No matter how good I was to you, no matter how much I loved you. I did everything imaginable, yet I still couldn't figure out where I went wrong. But that's the thing about heartbreak, it happens whether you're deserving or not. Whether you want it to or not.

If I hear your name in a crowd, I look. If I'm driving and hear a song you used to love, I think about you. You will always cross my mind, though you're no longer in my life.

You were my first love and to be honest, you leaving will always sting. I'll never understand why some things happened, and I have a lot of questions I'll never receive the answer to. There has been a lot of things said that weren't meant, and things that weren't said that should've been, but through it all, thank you.

Thank you for allowing me to feel love, and be loved. Thank you for the memories I could never forget, and thank you for making me strong. You leaving forced me to pick up the pieces and put it back together. It made me realize how important it is to love yourself. It made me realize that life and love isn't a fairy tale, and that sometimes no matter what you do or how much you try, somethings aren't meant to be.