Dear Ex-Love,
I’ve been hearing that you’re doing well –much better than before. I’ve heard that you’re working on your future, trying to make a name for yourself. I just want you to know that I’m very, very proud of you.
Your birthday came and went. Some holidays did too. It’s a shame I couldn’t spend them with you, but I hope you enjoyed them. You seem happier now without me by your side. After all, your happiness is all I’ve wanted for you since as long as I’ve met you. It’s been so long since I’ve seen you smile, and I miss it. I cannot lie.
They say that time heals all wounds, but I don’t know about this one. In such a short amount of time, you impacted my life in a way that no one else ever could. I’ll never forget it, and I never want to forget it. I’ll always be thankful for you.
Some people ask me how you have been doing, but the truth is, I don’t even know. Others inform me on how you’re doing, and it stings when they first mention your name. But when they tell me that you’re doing well with school and with work and with life itself, I feel a little bit better. You have wanted to be content with your life for so long, and it seems that now you finally are, and I am happy for you. I really am. I wish I could experience it with you, though, but that’s just the way life goes.
You make me feel homesick for you. I know you’re not going to call, but I still sleep with my phone right beside me with the volume turned up just in case. It has been three months, and I thought I was doing fine. We hadn’t talked. I hadn’t seen you. I thought I had moved on. But, one night, on an aimless drive, I realized I loved you and I needed you. That’s when I knew I was never over you at all. It’s like everything I loved had become everything I lost.
We didn’t work out, and I’ll be okay with that one day. I’ll be happier then –more so than I was with you. I read somewhere, “You didn’t lose him, he lost you,” and I believe that to be true. The universe was not fighting for us to be together. We were so wrong for each other, but at the time I didn’t see it. Or maybe not. Maybe you’re the right person but the timing is what was so wrong. I am in pain all the time, but one day I won’t be anymore.
If someone would’ve warned me from the beginning that I could have you, but I would not be able to keep you, I still would’ve gone through with it. You were worth every single moment, no matter how short. It doesn’t matter if our love lasts forever. It only matters that we were once lucky enough to have it.
I send my best wishes to you. I hope you’re doing well, and I hope that you are finally happy and at ease.
Sincerely,
A name your mind will never forget
