To the man who loves me next, let me start by saying I’m sorry. I’m sorry for all of the times that I will fail you, all the times I will overreact and all the times I make you feel any less than you are.
To the man who loves me next, yes I am aware that I am young, but I want something real, true and honest. I don’t plan on something short-lived. I plan for the opposite, something worthwhile and genuine. I know that doesn’t surprise you, because I know I probably have already said this a million times.
To the man who loves me next, I hope that you are understanding. I hope that you are patient. I hope you are able to look past the fact that I have an attention span of 10 minutes and that I get stressed out extremely easily. It’s also hard for me to open up and let people in, so please just bear with me; the time will come where I am able to tell about my experiences and life, but I promise the wait is worth it.
To the man who loves me next, I need time for myself. There are times where I just find absolute peace and beauty about being alone. Sometimes I need time with just myself in addition to time with God. There are also times where I want to curl up in my bed wearing my fuzzy socks and giant sweater and just watch movies all day (feel free to have cookies delivered to me). Just let me be, and please know that it’s nothing you did. Sometimes I just need time to unwind alone.
To the man who loves me next, grow with me. Hold my hands and pray with me, because God knows I need it. Start a study with me and go to church with me. You know I love experiencing a killer worship set, but with you by my side, it will make it so much better.
To the man who loves me next, be honest with me. If there is something on your mind, talk to me. Never be afraid to speak up if you need it. I also ask that you trust me and put your faith in me when you need it. I know that sometimes I won’t live up to your expectations, but I promise I will try.
But most importantly, to the man who loves me next, make sure you really want this. It’s not going to be all rainbows and butterflies, but it will definitely make the rough times more bearable. I promise to love you with every fiber in my body and to grow with you and be your ride or die. I will support you through everything you set your mind to, and I hope you do the same for me. I just ask that you know what you are getting into and that you love me for me and never give up on us, because this can be something so beautiful and with God by our side, who can stand in our way?
Love,
Me.
