Dear you,
I guess it’s true what they say: heartbreaks are the worst kind of pain. It’s been just a few hours since we have decided to end our happily ever after. It was just last night I was sleeping in your sweatshirt, your comfy pants, and cuddling with your stuffed animal trying to hold onto the rest of our relationship as tight as I could.
At this moment, I still have traces of mascara black tears running down my face, a box of all your things in the back of my closet and a shattered heart that is too wounded for mending. I never thought I was going to have to endure another heartbreak in my entire life. I thought I met my one and only. I thought I was one of the lucky ones.
Ever since you and I became an “us,” I would sit thinking about what kind of dress I would wear, what our rings would look like, and what song would be our first dance. Unfortunately, that eventually came to an end. Our relationship seemed to be over with just the snap of my fingers. Fast, but painful.
While you were picking your friends, I was picking our relationship. While you were fighting with me, I was fighting for you. I know you don’t realize the love I gave you but I hope one day you will. I can promise you no one will ever love you like I do. Our love was raw, it was strong and beautiful, but the distance corrupted us. The distance got the best of our relationship and broke it down.
So, although you hurt me so bad, I honestly hope that you follow your heart wherever it may lead you. I hope you succeed with flying colors and I hope you never forget our cherished memories. Finally, I hope that you find your true love, maybe it wasn’t me, but someone out there is. That being said, I ask a favor of you. When you find her, keep her and never let her go. Choose her, choose love, and choose your future together.
Written June 8th, 2016
Dear you,
It’s been almost a month and I’m okay now. I am happy being myself and single.
Yes, we had a good run but I would rather be single than be in the wrong relationship. At the end of the day, I understand my worth and I’m worth so much more than you thought. I deserve someone that puts 100 percent in the relationship and doesn’t give up in a blink of an eye when things get tough.
The hurt made me a stronger person and I am glad I get the chance to just focus on myself now. Life is too short to be worrying about someone else, especially you. I feel free and I am happy. Thank you for being a crucial lesson in my life. You taught me many things.
1. I deserve much more than what you gave me.
2. My perfect match is out there somewhere.
3. I am worth more and I need to love myself no matter what.
I guess I'm at a point in my life in which I understand the importance of leaving behind something broken in hopes of finding something new. Ultimately, the hurt and the tears that I endured helped me realize important things about myself and about the world around me.
Written July 3rd, 2016
