In this generation finding a genuine guy with his head on straight seems to be a 1/832974742 chance. But I got lucky, and for some reason I wanted to push him as far away as possible because I didn't think it could be possible, to find someone so perfect for me. Through everything I've done, I'm SO glad you didn't leave. So here is to the guy who stayed..
All you see on social media these days are these absurd relationship goals that no one can ever really achieve, or their extremely corny and you don't want them. But for some reason our generation loves them, we think that is what our love should look like, that it blinds us from true love. We don't see our loved ones doing the things we see in movies, but they do every other thing right and we're still not pleased. Being a young minded teenager I had what seemed to be the perfect guy who did it all right, showed me, constant love, supported me in every little thing he could, just like the movies. But for some reason every opportunity I had I wanted to push him away. Every time something went bad in my life I pushed him away when all he wanted to do was be there for me and do nothing but help me.
As I sat there alone begging for attention from everyone else but the guy who wanted to give it to me I realized that he was the one that I wanted but I didn't think I was good enough. I didn't believe that someone so pure could be all in for me, and not want anyone but me. Looked at me as if I was the only one in this universe, he told me every day how much he loved me and how he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me. At the time that scared the crap out of me, I got scared and left him again.. how could I leave this beautiful person and hurt the person I loved and adored so much. Of course, I always got my mind right and wanted him back and every time I went back (3 to be exact) I knew I hurt him but his love for me did nothing but grow. That right there is beautiful, he never knew if I was going to come back but he was always ready.
So as I sit here thinking about this journey we've been on together for three years, I have nothing to say but Thank You to the guy who never left my side no matter how many times I begged him too. Thank you for loving me unconditionally through every little bump, and always staying true to yourself. If one of those times you would have been done with me, I wouldn't be able to do anything but wish you well and know you would be the one who got away. But God decided to continue blessing me with your beautiful, genuine soul, and for that I will be forever grateful.I love you now, and I will love you forever.
