Sometimes, friends can break your heart too. I had to learn this the hard way.

I remember the first day we met like it was yesterday. I saw you and I knew I wanted to be friends with you from the moment you spoke. You made some stupid joke about something and I laughed. From that point on, we build a friendship that I thought would last forever. You were the only person I could talk to about things that seemed impossible to even let leave my mouth. You were always there for me, or so I thought you were. I was always there for you. I never left your side no matter how many arguments we had, no matter how many dark secrets you shared with me. You were the person I felt comfortable being my bare self around. We picked pumpkins, carved them, named them, took selfies in our bras together, went for late night drives around the city. You were the only person I wanted to do those things with. I couldn't imagine doing them with anyone else and I didn't want to do them with anyone else.

Eventually, I realized how toxic our friendship was. I took responsibility for things that weren't my fault and you didn't hold yourself accountable to anything. You neglected our friendship when all I ever did was try to get you out of your own head and help you. Maybe I pushed you too hard. Maybe I didn't know what was best for you, even though I thought I did. All of that is okay now. You broadcasted to the world your hatred for me by videotaping yourself burning a picture of us and I kept my mouth shut. I didn't embarrass you. I didn't express any hatred towards you. I stayed neutral and optimistic. Even though what you did hurt like nothing I have ever experienced, I won't mourn over the loss of you. I will take is as a lesson learned and remember us in a positive light. I will remember the crying together, the cuddling, the sleepovers, the food, and the fun we had. I will remember the tattoos we wanted to get together and how I was there when you got your septum pierced. I choose to remember you in the lighter sense, and you chose to let me burn. I will never forget what we had but I would never go back to you. So thank you for the fun and the memories that we had, now you can go make those memories with someone else. I hope you choose to see the next best friend you have in the lighter sense, instead of letting them burn.