Hey beautiful,
I've noticed that since your breakup, you have't been feeling the same. This was one of your first long term relationships and in the blink of an eye, it went left and now you are here. Here basically is sitting in your bed with a tub of Ben and Jerry's and some romantic movie that makes you cry even though you already know the outcome. A couple of months later, you've convinced yourself that are over it and him, but the memories still come back. You try to go on date, but they never really seem to be quite as memorable or fun as they were with him. You keep the pictures and voicemails, just to feel closer to something that isn't there.
Stop. Stop hurting yourself with the pain of something that just isn't there anymore. Yes. When it was good, it was amazing. Life was the best it could've been. You felt loved, appreciated and beautiful whenever you were with him.. for the first couple of months. Then when the jealousy, the fights, and the emotional rollercoaster started kicking in, things didn't feel the same. You suddenly felt small, powerless and less than lovable.
One day, you will be able to wake up, and smile and say you're ok. One day, you won't cringe when the song he used to sing to you comes up on the radio. One day, you will be able to see that it wasn't you and no amount of love and effort could have prevented the relationship from going in the dark direction it ultimately went in.
The day will come that the wall you so hastily built up after this devastating relationship to protect yourself, will come down. A man will come along, making you wonder why you ever doubted the beauty of love in the first place. He will make you feel beautiful every minute of the day and will appreciate all the love you will give to him. He will be ready to put you in front of other women and make you guys grow together as a unit.
Take this relationship as a lesson; a lesson to continue to love hard no matter what. One day this ex will wake up and realize what he lose, and then it will be too late.
Remember how beautiful and special you are and that everything will be ok.
I love you.
