To the boy who loves me next,
Whoever you are, wherever you are, I can't wait to meet you. I have a feeling you are going to change my life. But to be honest, there's a lot you need to know.
The past is why I'm writing this letter. Please don't think you're getting an untouched heart or a girl in perfect condition. I have loved and lost plenty of times. I was broken, lied to, cheated on, cried a river and basically been used. I thought he was the best thing that ever happened to me but I was completely wrong.
Regardless, to the next person I love, please know I will offer you everything I have. I am hoping this is enough for you to stay for a very long time because no one has done that yet. When I fall in love with you, I will love you hard. Harder than you've ever been loved and I hope you do the same for me.
I will require some work, though. To be honest I don't know if I'm lovable. I’m very guarded and I don’t trust many people. Now, I know it has nothing to do with you. It has more to do with the people in the past, and the ones who just walked away. I’m broken and sometimes I’m not OK, but I’m trying to fix myself just for you. I don't need a knight in shining armor or a superhero because I've learned to save myself. I just need you to hold my hand and be there for me to tell me things are going to be OK.
Like I said, I won't require much from you. You don’t have to constantly buy me flowers or jewelry. But I do, however, need to know that you still care and I need to be reminded often or as often as possible. I need to know that I’m the one you want. Show me. Tell me I’m gorgeous even when my hair is a mess or when I don't put makeup on. Take me out, show me off to your friends. Let me take tons pictures of us because they make me happy and I want to savor the memories. Sing at the top of your lungs while you're in the car with me. Let me fall asleep next to you and wake up to you with your arms wrapped around me. Take me on as many adventures possible. Embrace my family as if they’re your own. Prove to me that you still want me.
To the next boy I love, I know you are unnamed, faceless and currently undiscovered, but I have a feeling you are going to change my life. I have a feeling I’m going to love you unconditionally and love you regardless of all the times I have told myself I will never love anyone else. You'll be the first person I tell my good news to, you'll be my best friend and my other half. But let's be honest, you're going to be the one to kill the spiders I'm too afraid to kill.
Just respect me. Love me. Be honest with me and always be loyal. That's all I ask.
See you soon.
