To the boy who wasn't good enough for me,
Thank you. I met you almost four years ago, and I will never forget what happened. You lied and broke my heart. It takes a lot for a young girl like I was back then to get over her first love. But no matter how awful things were with you, how you would come back and leave over and over again, I am beyond thankful. You taught me so much, about myself and life in general. With all this behind me, you helped shape who I am today.
I'm proud to say that I stand taller, stronger, and happier. I am finally becoming who I want to be. This is partially because I don't want to be who I was when I knew you. I learned that I don't like the person I was: lonely, needy, insecure, and dependent on you. I learned I definitely needed to change who I was to be a better person. I realized after a couple years of waiting for you to mature, I needed to grow up, too. I needed to learn that I can't wait forever and I deserve better than what I was getting waiting for you to come back. Although, as I mentioned, it was necessary so I could grow up.
So, thank you for changing me for the better.
And to the boy who has my heart,
I love you. You make me smile every day, especially when I want to cry. Even the bad days aren't so bad when I'm with you. You're the reason I watched Deadpool for the first time, the second, and possibly the third time. Every time after that was because your interests started rubbing off on me. We like the same food and Girl Scout cookies. We have the same sadistic humor, I found that out while we played Cards Against Humanity. You understand my favorite hobby is napping and soon to be knitting because I've turned into an old lady and where my spot is on the bed. You know my favorite candy and let me eat off your plate. These are all the little things that make me happy every single day.
You were there with me when our best friend was in the hospital. You were there when my mother left my step-father. You were there for me throughout every rough patch in the past eight months, as I have been for you. I will stand by your side throughout anything you go through and I hope you know that I'll always be just a phone call away, which is why I am always so lucky to have you. I know that it's hard to see forever with someone, but with you I can't see anything else. You are my best friend and one of the most important people in my life. I don't know what I'd do without you because you support my ambitions, celebrate my accomplishments and comfort me when things go wrong. I'm dependently independent with you and I wouldn't want it any other way.
I love you, Bishop. Thank you for being there for me every step of the way.
