Dear Boy,
You said pain is temporary but how do you know? Sometimes the pain feels like it could go on forever. It's not even so much the pain that hurts the most, it's the empty feeling I get every time I realize you're not there anymore even though you're right down the street.
I don't know what happened to us. One minute you were there and we were happy and the next minute you changed your mind. But it's hard because it still isn't clear to me. You didn't give me any answers. You told me you didn't know what you wanted but that has so much meaning. I waited and I keep waiting for answers that may never come my way. I just can't find a way to let go of the hope.
I wish you could tell me that there is nothing left but you left saying you still had feelings. Although you say you are choosing to ignore these feelings I can't seem to find a way to let go or ignore mine. You can't ignore your problems forever and it's ironic because I want to talk about my problems and get advice on how to move on but you are the only person I want the advice from. You were the only person I could open up to and there was a time in my life when I thought that would never happen again.
The worst part of all of this is I still miss you everyday. It feels like I can't eat or sleep or do anything without thinking out about you. Even when I try to go on dates you are still the only person I think about. Because you left me without answers and I am the person who will hold on to the unknown forever. I hope that one day you read this and figure out exactly what you want and have the decency to give me that answer. I don't want to hear what will give me a sense of relief. Just please put me out of my misery.
From,
The Girl That's Still Here
