Dear No Caller ID,
I met you at a very weak time in my life, I was desperate to say the least and the next year and a half proved that. I was young, stupid and looking for a relationship, but what I got was a new perspective on life.
We had fun. Don't get me wrong I had a blast sitting at home eating cookout every night, crying because you cheated again and sitting on the edge of my seat wondering if you were going to break my heart again.
But I'm not writing this letter to bash you or make you look bad, I'm writing this letter to tell you I'm better than that relationship and I'm a better person because of it.
During our almost 2 year relationship I truly lost myself and I lost sight of what we were. Towards the end I couldn't come up with a positive thought about us, I just knew I loved you because you became an actual part of me. I couldn't go anywhere without someone asking where you were or what you were up to. My opinions became our opinions, my plans were our plans...
When I got an amazing opportunity you told me I wouldn't get it, you told me to not even try and that's when I knew I fell out of love with you. The "other part of me" didn't think I could do it and be successful. No one is going to tell ME what I can and can't do. That's just about the time we ending things and you moved on with someone else and I moved on with my life.
I blocked you and tried to start my new life. One I knew I had to start from the ground up because with you, I lost my friends and myself. After a few months I started receiving calls from a "No Caller ID" and i had no idea it was you, I thought maybe it spam (you know the things you signed me up for online?)
Then one day you said something... it wasn't much, a simple "hey" and my world shattered. I received those calls for months and months, making moving on and finding someone who actually cared impossible because I hoped that you would want me back and want to fix everything. I sat at home waiting for you to call, I blew off dates, my friends and family for you. I couldn't start a new relationship because you were coming over or you said that you wanted me to wait for you, wait for you to end things with her so that we could be together. You manipulated me, I knew that you wouldn't leave her, I was naive.
But don't worry, I finally met someone. One who I can always count on, a strong person, an independent person, a caring and loving person. I met me when I lost you.
I found new friends that always make my day better, I got a job that I look forward to going to, I found happiness... all without you.
I'm laughing again, smiling for no reason and enjoy spending time with people I blew off because of you.
So thank you for showing me your worth, showing me that you will never change and showing me I deserve so so much more.
One day I'll meet someone who compares to me. Someone that will realize my worth and love me for my successes and my failures, but until then... it's a job I can handle.
So please stop calling bb because I won't be picking up anymore.
Sincerely,
This person is no longer available to accept your calls.
