I miss you. I say this now after just talking to you again after so long. How could I not miss you? We spent every day together. You are my best friend…were my best friend. I miss you. I don’t blame you for us losing touch, even though I know you blame me. Hell, even I blame me. Both of us just got way too busy with school. Isn’t that the excuse we keep making? Life is just too busy?

The thought process of catching up with an old BFF

Before:

I can’t wait!

I haven’t seen her in so long!

We’ll have so much to catch up on.

THERE SHE IS!

Sh*t! What do I do?

Would it be weird to hug?

I don’t want to make this awkward.

Eff it, I'll hug her.

Well. That was awkward.

During:

What should we even talk about?

The usually “how have you been?” just took all of five seconds for her to answer..

This is going to be a long day.

It’s like we’re strangers.

I can’t believe I can sit here and feel so lonely next to my best friend.

What didn’t I make more of an effort to keep in touch?

Why didn’t she?

I guess all we have to talk about is the old times.

I’d rather have new adventures instead of reminiscing about the old ones.

This sucks..

We haven’t even gotten our food yet.

I hate myself.

Does she even still like me anymore?

She didn’t really seem that excited about seeing me.

Ugh. I’m so stupid for even trying.

She probably hates how much I’ve changed since High school.

She probably thinks I only care about things that don’t matter.

I love how much I’ve changed.

I feel like I do a pretty OK job at keeping it together.

I’m the one that should be judging HER.

She’s the one that HASN’T changed at all.

I hate myself.

I’m way too petty.

I just want it to be the way it used to be.

UGH!

I just wish we could go back in time.

I suck.

After:

That wasn’t that bad.

I actually had fun.

From here on I promise to keep in better touch.

I hate myself.

I probably won’t.

I’ll just end up sating I’m too busy.

I hate myself.

I miss her.