Dear Mom,
You’ve been there since day 1; you’re the reason I’m alive today and the way I am. I can’t thank you enough for all the things you do for me, even though I don’t always say ‘thank you’. You’re the reason I am the way I am, and I can’t thank you enough for that. I’m extremely blessed and thankful to be able to call you my mother, and my best friend.
As much as I made it seem that I was unbelievably excited to be going to school by counting down the days and saying how I couldn’t wait to get out of this town, I knew it was going to be hard for both of us. You weren’t going to have me around anymore; no one to go on drives with, no one to go get your nails done with, and no one to make you laugh as much as I did. As much as I love living on my own and being at school, it’s not the same without you here. As much as my roommate tries to be my mom away from home, and she does a great job at it, but no one can it better than you can. You don’t know how much I wish I could jump in a car and go on a drive with you, or when I’m upset about all the problems and the stress I’m feeling from school, that you could just give me a hug and tell me everything is going to be okay.
Thank you for always answering when I text you late at night because I’m extremely stressed from school and need someone to talk to. Thank you for always listening to me when I constantly complain about the same problems that I’m having, because you know it makes me feel better. Thank you for understanding that I can’t talk all the time like we used to because I’m much busier. I don’t know what I would do without you in my life, and I can’t say thank you enough. Even though I may get extremely annoyed with the billion questions you ask me and respond rudely, I really appreciate it at the end of the day. I’m sorry for when we fight, saying things I don’t mean, and using you as my punching bag when I’m angry, because I know you’ll always love me no matter what I say.
Thank you for when you visit, taking me to get lunch and go shopping, and then coming back to my dorm and making my bed. Thank you for the phone calls, the laughs, the cries, and the times when you told me everything was going to work out the way it’s supposed to, when I wasn’t sure it would. Thank you for motivating me to stop watching Netflix and to go to the gym, even when you’re not there in person to do it. Thank you for always being there for me to talk to, no matter the time of the day. And thank you for teaching me that no matter what, you always have to have faith.
The transition has been hard for both of us, but it was needed. I know that some days it can be harder than others, but just know, I’m only a phone call away.
I’m sorry I don’t say thank you for these things more often, and that I take all the things you do for me for granted, but I truly do appreciate it. I know me being at school has been tough for you, but we’re getting through it together. You’re my best friend Mommy, and I don’t know what I would do without you in my life. I love you more than you can imagine. <3
Love,
Your daughter in college
