Dear Gram,
I miss you. I truly do. Things have been getting harder and harder without you here. We fight everyday. We argue, yell and ignore each other. There really is no connection with you missing. Days go by without smiles or laughter. Nights go by with tears and yelling. It is not the same. This is because you are missing.
I want to thank you for changing our lives. You connected the entire family and made all of us one. Although we are all apart now, you still lie in our hearts. I miss your cooking, your home, your car. I especially miss seeing you everyday.
Believe me, each day gets harder and harder without you. Everyone is trying to get along - but without you it is hard. You were our glue. You were our light. You were our love. You inspire me each day. Thinking back I know that because of you I am strong. Without you here I soon realized that you made a huge impact on my life.
It is true that we do not appreciate what we have until we lose it. The pain in my heart is hurting, but I know you are in a better place now. You must be happy to finally get some rest, because I know here you had none. You were always on the run cooking and making sure we were all OK.
You made me realize that family is important. I know my mom and sisters are struggling as much as I am and perhaps that's why we fight. It's not fighting that makes me upset, it's the fact that we all distance ourselves so much from one and other. Sometimes we don't even realize what we are doing. Today is my first day back at college for summer courses and my mom said to me "wait you have school?" Communication is gone but it's only because we have been missing you.
I guess I can say you basically helped us through everything. When we needed money you were there, no to mention food, laughter and of course love. No matter what we needed you always seemed to be there to guide us. To lead us in the right direction. To help us. Now we don't have you and we have to learn how to live this way.
What I want people to learn is you never know when you may loose someone. You can get mad at someone and who knows, the next day they may be gone. Don't forget that we are all human and it is in our nature to get ill. Don't forget to say I love you. To say you matter. To say you care. Because you may never get that chance again. Gram, I love you more then you could ever know and I really do miss you.
In the end I want to thank you. I want to tell you that I truly miss you. I love you so much. Thank you gram for changing this family and changing my life.
With love,
Tat
