We’ve been through it all together, from kindergarten all the way to senior year. We’ve laughed, we’ve cried. We’ve made the DUMBEST decisions, and we’ve let each other know when a decision they were making was dumb. We’ve lectured each other, taken turns being the “mom” of the group. We’ve held each other when the other was down, we’ve leaned on each other and been the one to lean on.

And then 3 months ago, you moved away.

Although we said we would never grow apart and we would always be as close as we have always been, we did. We can deny it all we want, and say that nothing has changed, but it has.

I can’t randomly come pick you guys up and make a McDonald’s run. We can’t roam the streets at 1 am. I can’t call you randomly and talk to you about what went on that day. We can’t act like complete idiots together, or cry on each others shoulder. We can’t sit in the middle of the street, freaking out when bugs come near us. We can’t sit in the car for an hour and a half just talking. We can’t take a random walk to the park at midnight just to swing on the playground like we did when we were kids. We can’t do anything that we used to do.

We don’t come to each other about every little thing anymore. We don’t know exactly what the other is doing. We can’t send that random “Can I come pick you up?” text. It’s a lot different than it used to be, and it gets lonely without you guys here. I’ve cried and cried and cried, from the moment you left to right now.

But I try to remember that this is life, friends grow apart and there’s not much you can do to stop it. You have to go make a life for yourself, as do I. And sometimes, friends just can’t stay together.

So, as I sit in the middle of Starbucks in tears, writing this, I want you to know a few things.

I am always here. I don’t care how many miles are between us, you’re never going to get rid of me. So if you need a random vent session at 3am, don’t hesitate to call. Text me during the day, tell me whats going on. I love hearing from you.

You are forever my best friends. You have been with me through everything, literally. Even though we didn’t always get along, we always remained close friends. I couldn’t ask for better people in my life. You guys are my family, and family has always been everything to me. Theres nothing that can change that. Not even stupid college.

No one will ever replace you. I have yet to meet a person that I could click with as fast as I did you guys. No one could EVER live up to you. You guys are so high on my totem pole, theres no coming down. You will still be the bridesmaids at my wedding and the aunts to my children, no matter what.

So, even though we don’t talk everyday and everything seems so distant, you are my best friends. You always will be. A part of my heart has been filled with you guys for so long that no one could ever replace it. I love you all so much and yeah I miss you, but I’m proud of you. You’re pursuing your dreams, and even though you’re away from home, it makes me happy to know you’re happy.