It's three in the morning and I am blasting my favorite Swift songs while browsing social media. I came across relatable posts and I can't help but tag you in all of them. Minutes after, my phone will notify me that you sent a message. And our three a.m. session starts.
It always goes like this: You ask how my day was, what's new and vice versa. After those formalities out of the way, we'll have a deeper heart to heart talk. Our conversations never stay on one topic. You name it, we talk about it: Love, life, family, friends, sex, self, mental health and more. We discover something from each other that we thought we already knew, and I guess that is the best way to spend your three a.m's, right?
Our three a.m will never be complete without shedding some tears (I guess?). I provided a lot of advice, which makes me wonder if I should change my profession or not, kidding. Digressing aside, here's what I really want to say to you.
Everyday, the same cycle goes. You'll send a Good Morning and Good Night message to people you care about. Every message receives no reply, but you still went on. You are a positive light to everybody's dimming days, and for that I want to thank you. Your mind is open to everyone, but still as guarded as the Queens kingdom. You don't want people to carry what you're carrying, insisting that you have it all sorted out.
We know you're strong, but it doesn't mean you don't need a helping hand to get you through. So please, don't get offended when we offer our hands to lighten up your burden.
Then there's love. Wanting someone that doesn't want you back crushes you, big time. Giving all that you have without hesitation, but still get hurt when people don't do the same.
You have always questioned your self worth, asking why he can't see you. I always ask you the same question, why can't you see you? I know love is a very powerful emotion and yes, the heart wants what it wants, but losing yourself in the process of loving him, is he worth it?
I know that you got hurt when he said that your love is the "wrong type" of love for him. No, honey, it was never wrong. You were never wrong. Loving someone your heart chose was never wrong. Always keep that in mind. If he thinks it's wrong, then maybe he's not the right one for you.
You wonder, "am I not a priority?", I wonder why you can't see the people who built walls to keep you safe from people who never understands?
You're always there for people, no one will be mad if you give something to yourself. Self care is not selfish, okay? The right people will wait until you got back from the healing process, I promise.
You told me I am your three a.m. best friend, well you are my best friend, 24/7. You are irritating, exasperating kind of bestfriend yet I still love all of you.
To my 3 am person, always remember that we got you. I got you. So if he's not there to pick you up after you fall for him, I'll pick you up and we will hunt him down to make sure he knows exactly what he's missing.
