Hi,

It's been quite a long time since we've last talked. Even though a lot of time has passed, there isn't a day where you don't cross my mind. Whether it's just for a minute when I get lost in my old memories, I do think about you every day. I know we have both gone our separate ways, growing as individuals down two different paths, but just know that I will forever cherish the friendship we had. I just have a few things I want to let out.

I know our friendship died out because of me, and a day never passes without me thinking about what we could have been today if I didn't mess up. You gave me so many chances to redeem myself in our friendship, just because what we had throughout high school was amazing. You were literally everything I wasn't -- so focused, detail-oriented, a perfectionist, organized, while I was always the one that was so relaxed and just went with the flow. We complemented each other like salt and pepper, and we always questioned how we became friends since we were so different. It didn't matter though, because we just worked.

I didn't appreciate you like I should have. Throughout our high school years, I was a mess and didn't care much about anything. I studied last-minute for things because a lot of the time, I would forget about important deadlines. You were always on top of everything and would remind me about it all. You were my backbone and a big reason why I ended up being so successful in high school. You let me taste all of your baked goods and would give me THE best gifts any best friend could ever give. You knew exactly what I loved and what would make me happy no matter what kind of day I was having. When I would have the worst days, you never failed to make me feel better. You were and will always be one of the greatest people to come into my life, and I can only blame myself that I didn't appreciate you the way you deserved.

I never put in the same amount of effort that you did. You were always the one to take the initiative to hang out or spend time together, whether it would be studying or just shopping. You were always the one who gave the most thoughtful and meaningful gifts on Christmas and birthdays. Even though you never expected me to return the same amount of effort into the gift giving, you deserved it a lot more than I did because you never stopped trying. You never stopped trying to strengthen our friendship and you fought so hard to keep it alive, even when I was as withdrawn the way I was. I caused you so much pain and tears, and not a day goes by where I don't regret how much I hurt you and destroyed our friendship. You fought so hard to keep our friendship alive, but there was only so much you could handle. I don't blame you for moving on, because you did not deserve to have a best friend who didn't appreciate you the way you deserved.

It's been a while since we last spent time together and had a real conversation. You have moved to greater and better things, and it's nice seeing how close you've gotten to other people now. They appreciate you and cherish you better than I ever did, and you deserve nothing less than that. You are a phenomenal woman, and I know you will one day be the greatest wife and mother to your future family. As much as I regret neglecting our friendship the way I did, I learned so much from it. I learned to never take those closest to my heart for granted, to never let them forget how much I love them and appreciate them. You taught me how to love unconditionally, and no matter how much pain my loved ones can cause me, to love them regardless.

Maybe one day in the future, we may grab brunch or talk over a cup of coffee, reminiscing about our high school years. Maybe one day, our paths will cross once again and we'll rekindle our once great friendship. Whatever the future has in store, just know that I will always wish nothing but the best for you and your future, and that I will always love you with all my heart.

Sincerely,

Your Ex-Best Friend