To an old friend of mine,
First of all, I hope you are doing well. Regardless of what happened between us, I do not wish anything bad on you. I wish you the best in life and hope you are happy. I am not writing this to cause any problems, or to make you angry. I just wanted to put what I always wish I could have said to you into words because I feel that I deserve to express how I feel.
Sometimes, I just sit and think about the good memories we shared together. At times it even seemed like we were inseparable. We were that dynamic duo everyone always talked and knew about. You were that one person I thought I could trust. That one person I relied on to always tell me the truth, no matter how much it would hurt me. Then, one day, it was like I never even existed to you.
Sure, we would have our petty little arguments like most friendships encounter, but friends never give up on one another. Friends don't stop being friends with one another over silly things that can easily be fixed. But I was always the one saying "I'm sorry" and apologizing for things that did not really even require one. You made me feel like I was just an option and that I should be okay with that.
It is understandable that everyone has their own lives and dreams that they want to pursue, but it does not mean that friendships have to end. It seemed like I was the one putting in all the effort after a while. You never seemed to check-up on me to see how I was doing, unless there was no one else around that you could talk to. But somehow, I would always be the nice guy.
I was always the shoulder to cry on because that is who I am as a person. I don't think I even have a mean bone in me, even if I tried to find it. I let you take advantage of me and I was blind to it. I realize now that I deserve a friend in my life that treats me better. A friend that encourages me, supports me, and doesn't make me feel like I am a bad person. Because I know for a fact that I am a good person, but my big heart gets me into trouble sometimes.
You were the one that screwed up, but it's okay. I am not upset anymore because that time has come and gone. I have grown as a person and have learned that being upset is not worth it. The people who are in my life are the ones that I need. Holding a grudge is not going to change anything, and I don't want it to. Everything happens for a reason, so thank you for being a part of my life for the time that you were. Thank you for the good times we shared together. I am a bigger and better person because of that.
Sincerely,
Your old friend
