I had one goal when I started college, and that was to study abroad. But I never really took into account the people I would be leaving behind.

Studying abroad is an experience I always wanted to have, and I'm so glad that I made the decision to do it, but that doesn't mean that I don't miss all the people I left behind. Seeing everyone moving on with their lives back at school without me is the saddest feeling. No matter what I do here, I'm always going to be sad that I didn't have the people from back home to share it with. You all know who you are, and just know that I could not do this without your constant support, I miss you all more than you know. This experience would be so much better with all of you here. I looked at studying abroad as a way to find myself, and fix all the broken pieces in my life, as well as removing the toxic people that somehow continuously invade it. Especially after I had one of the hardest semesters of my life, I couldn't wait to have a break from the place where my complicated past is constantly following me. However as soon as I got to London, I realized that I would be having the most amazing experience, but my friends from home will still be having experiences as well that I will not be there for. To the people who were there for me this semester, you know who you are, and you put me back together when I was broken and continuously made stupid decisions. I miss your advice and comforting talks while we all drank coffee at midnight. No one here understands why I laugh at tuna cans or my extreme hatred of jeans, and you are the first people I want to tell when I do something embarrassing or ridiculous, because I know you will understand more than anyone. It makes me appreciate the friendships that I do have that make being gone so hard. If I'm driving to your boyfriends house to scream at him after he hurt you, you know you have had a large enough impact on my life that I will wish you were here. You've all seen me at my worst, and helped me keep going. Even if I continuously say I'm done, no one here knows me well enough to know what that really means. Whether I've known you since freshman year or we just met, you've all clearly had a large impact on my life, which makes being so far away a really conflicting feeling. I love being abroad, and I know it's going to be the most incredible experience of my life, but I constantly find myself wondering what it would be like if I was back at school, and if people from home think about me too. So thank you all for being that influential that even when I'm having a once in a lifetime experience, I still miss home because of you.