Imagine constantly living your life in anxiety. Would you like to raise a family on your own and barely see your husband? Would you enjoy going to sleep each night not knowing if your husband is alive or not? What if a movie came about based on the story line of a wife’s perspective that has a husband in the military?

The movie American Sniper is based off of a true story. Chris Kyle’s wife had to go through exactly what I mentioned. Personally, I think someone should produce American Sniper in the wife’s perspective. This movie would focus more on her household life and struggles than her husband’s struggles. Now I’m not at all saying that Chris’s struggles in war were not as hard, I just feel as though the wife should have a chance on telling the story from her point of view as shown…

“I always go back, back to that one night at the bar that changed my life forever. I wish I wasn’t so drunk that night. Even now, I’m trying to put all the pieces together. I remember this big, strong, attractive man coming up to me at the bar. Instantly, I rolled my eyes thinking “here comes another ass just trying to get in my pants”. Being a typical guy, he offered me a drink. Being my hard to get self, I declined… but he wouldn’t take no for an answer. Five minutes later, there I was with a drink in my hand talking to this stranger who soon turned out to be my future husband and love of my life. The rest of the night is a bit fuzzy. Chris “claims” that we hit it off right from the start and that I was so in to him. (But he can over exaggerate sometimes and be a little cocky) He told me how I went back to his place and threw up while he held my hair… how embarrassing. I always blush when he says that, but he claims it was kind of cute and romantic in a weird way.

Before we knew it , there we were on our wedding day. That day was by far the best day of my life, but also the first time I actually realized what I was getting into… While we were having our first dance, Chris turned away from looking at me and looked at his Navy buddies. They gave each other this peculiar look and he nodded. I asked him during that dance what just happened but he just ignored me and kissed me on my forehead.

A little over a month after our wedding day, there he was walking out of our front door with his Navy uniform on, ready to go on his first mission overseas. I’ll never forget the feelings that ran through me in that moment in time. It was a combination of your stomach dropping, butterflies moving at the speed of light, and your entire body just going numb. Thoughts appeared in my head like “Is this this the last time I will see my husband?” and “How dangerous is this mission he is going on?” He got in his car, blew me one last kiss, waved goodbye, and drove away. Within one minute, my newly wed husband was gone risking his life overseas for his family.

I promised myself that I would forever support him and anything and everything he would do in life and I truly meant that. Although I was scared out of my mind for him, I was proud of him. He is the most courageous and amazing man I know. The first night alone without him was the start of the hardest times in my life. Imagine falling asleep alone, wondering if the love of your life is alive; wondering when the love of your life will come home again. It’s absolute torture. Imagine watching a horror movie and getting that hold of anxiety wondering when the fear is going to end. That was my struggle on a day-to-day basis. Chris might have been fighting enemies, but I was fighting fear, anxiety, and trying my best to keep my faith and hope.

It was like Christmas to get a letter or call from Chris. My face would light up instantly and my heart would start to beat a mile a minute. As days, and weeks, and months went on, I soon realized I was pregnant. When I was a little girl, I always imagined looking at the test and then instantly running and jumping into my husbands arms to tell him “Babe, we are having a baby!” and cry tears of joy. Yet, here I was alone as ever, not able to celebrate with my hunny. I’ll never forget that phone call, though, when I got to tell him. I could tell by his tone he was happier than he has been in months. When we were on the phone he was on top of a roof holding a gun, on alert to shoot people. I remember hoping that he wouldn’t get too excited and accidently let his gun go off. Now thinking about it, I just laugh and shake my head thinking who else can say that they told their husband they were having a baby over the phone when he was in a snipe mission with a huge gun in his hand. It’s kinda sexy and funny to me.

The humor sadly stopped there. As time went on, my stomach kept getting bigger and Chris was still away and not with me. There I was sitting on my couch in a sad empty house, attempting to assemble the baby crib. For some reason, that night was a breaking point for me. I lost all control. I sat there holding crib pieces and just balled my eyes out. I was sick of being alone, I was sick of living in fear, I just wanted my husband back.

Luckily, Chris came home in time for the baby. My whole life took a 360. I was so happy to have my babe with me. I was on cloud nine with Chris, raising our son. I never wanted to let my Chris go again. But there we were, a year later, him walking through the door waving goodbye at me and our son.

The wife of a Navy Seal is like no other. I truly feel like you sacrifice just as much as your husband does, but in different ways. Sometimes, even if your husband doesn’t die on a mission, you can still lose him. The military changes people. The military can change your man. The military did change Chris. He gradually got more out of it as time went on and as missions continued. He became quieter, more stressed, more serious, and constantly distracted. I just wanted my old happy, careless husband back, but I knew it was too late.

Here I am now speaking as a widowed wife and single mother. No matter what, I do not regret falling in love with Chris Kyle. He blessed me with wonderful children and made me the happiest woman in the world for the time he was here. Some women might say to never marry into the military. I am here to tell you that yes your life will forever be changed and yes it will be tremendously hard, but it was worth it. If you truly are in love, anything is worth it. I would do it all over again for Chris”.

Although, this is just a short example of how a script would play out for the movie American Sniper in the wife’s perspective, I already felt something. I think this movie would result in the audience becoming for grateful an appreciative. I think this story in the wife’s perspective would open people’s eyes to the other side of war. No other military movie has done something like this and I think it’s time for a change.