Dear Self,
Since I know you better than anyone and I know that you won’t listen to anyone’s advice i’m just going to walk you through some things.
It’s gonna hurt,it will hurt a lot. You will cry a lot, you will get upset a lot, you will hate yourself a lot and you will get destroyed at least 2 times in your life. One is at the beginning of your teenage years, second is as you run towards the end.
You will get through it, you might not know how but I promise you that you will. It won’t be easy, you will kick people out of your life, some of them deserve it but some of them don’t. You will get closer to people that you thought you would never be, one girl at your school that you thought didn’t like you will defend you the most, cherish that weird girl with the blue hair cause she will be there for you plenty of times.
You will learn a lot about yourself, you will become a whole different person. Fortunately or unfortuantely, you will still be that soft little girl deep inside, you will love people and you will care for others a lot, but you will become the best at defending yourself, speaking your mind and not letting toxic people in your life.
You will feel lonely, like no one likes you and no one will ever love you. You will doubt friendships, but I promise you that the ones that were meant to last, they will tag along with you. I want to tell you that you did pretty good for yourself, you will have dreams and goals, you will have some friends, you will be fine.
The nightmares will visit you sometimes, those scary thoughts will haunt you some nights, but you will shut them out and get a good night sleep. We both have a lot to learn, but I know that you can do a lot and you can go far, we will go far. The good thing is that you will actually hear an apology, from two people that you were so scared of.
Sometimes a nice guy won’t cut it. You will have to face the music and let the good guy go because it’s just didn’t feel right, it’s okay to do that, it’s okay to face reality, just take a deep breath and do it, trust me it will be better than you think it will.
Don’t yell at mom. She loves you more than anyone, those nights that you think you are alone she is listening you cry behind the door, she is the most precous human you got so try to make her happy cause she will always be there, it will get easier to talk to her, believe it or not she will become the first person you run to for advice about anything and everything.
I should have protected you more, I should have beeen smarter, I should have listened the others. But hey, everything happens for a reason, and the reason behind it is to make you stronger, tougher and make you see your potential in a lot of things.
Love,
Yourself.
