I hope that this finds you well.
I know breakups are hard; no one ever goes into a relationship wanting to break up. Relationships teach you about who you are, who you want to be, and what you want in life. Falling in love can be consuming, and its really easy to lose sight of who you are, or want to be. The kind of love that makes you lose yourself, is the kind of love that ruins you. Losing yourself to love is hard to realize, but know that you can always find yourself again. The first time I ever got my heart truly broken was because I broke it myself after realizing that I had no idea who I was anymore. It is terrifying, and unbelievably difficult to accept that you may not be as happy as you think you are, or supposed to be. Trying to find yourself after realizing you are lost isn't easy, but its not impossible. For starters,
You must want to find yourself
There is no easy way to come to this realization though. You may wake up one day and just know. You may find someone who shows you that you're ready to move on; make sure you thank them. The realization process is different for everyone, and some people may never realize it. As cliche as it sounds, the first sept to recovery is acceptance. No matter how hard you try, you will never truly find yourself until you want to start looking. After realizing that you have lost yourself to a relationship, there are probably a million thoughts running through your head. "Who am I? Where am I going? Why didn't I realize this sooner?" Know that it is okay to wonder these things. Once you are able to ask these questions, you are ready to start finding the answers.
Cut toxic things out of your life
Typically, people suggest that you should cut out toxic relationships and toxic people- but there are so many other factors that can cause someone to feel lost. As far as toxic relationships go, still cut them out. Cut out the friendships that always make you question their intentions, the ones you question if they genuinely care about you. Cut out the people who make you feel like you aren't good enough, the ones who don't believe in you. Cut out the people in your life that you always try to see the good in, even though they hurt you over and over again. You might even have to cut out the people in your life who enable toxic people, which is the hardest part because the enablers may be the ones who care about you the most. You should also though, cut out toxic habits. These may be different for everyone: drugs, unhealthy eating habits, irresponsible spending, negative outlooks on life, etc. Whatever your poison may be, this might be a good time to find some healthy substitutes.
Go back to the things that made you happy
Think back to the one thing that you used to love doing, that brought you selfless joy. What was it for you? Whatever it was, don't forget how happy it used to make you. I think one thing people forget too often, is what made them who they are. Believe it or not- the minuscule leisure activities contributed. With relationships, sometimes you spend so much time with that person that you forget all about your interests. Let this breakup be the reason that you start doing what you love again, whatever it is that you miss, don't forget about it.
Focus on your passions
focus on your goals, on your future, and on you. There is so much time left ahead of you, and you may have no idea what you want to do with your life. That is totally fine. Take this time to explore different options, and to appreciate new opportunities. If you know where you want to be, follow that. The worse feeling is losing your ambition. Maybe you lost your drive during the relationship, or right after it ended, but do not fall into a slump of unproductiveness. When you let yourself succumb to a routine, you lose so much time; time that could be spent on personal development and growth. Remember that when you're comfortable, you're never moving forward.
Appreciate the little things
Have you ever gone outside and just took everything in? I feel like all too often we take things at face value without thinking about them. After a breakup, everything can seem a little hazy. My advice is to try to take the time and enjoy the common things in life. I know you're probably thinking that you don't have time to spend thinking about "the little things", but I challenge you to try. It is so easy for life's joys to get away from us, and to get caught up in the motions of life. Just take a moment to let the sun beat down on your face. Theres no harm in taking some time for yourself.
Never want to stop learning more about yourself. Ask yourself what you value in life- maybe its changed since the last time you thought about it. There are a lot of questions you probably don't know the answers to, and it might take awhile to figure out. Just don't settle for who you are right now, there is always room to grow.
Don't be afraid to be happy again
Above all else, remember this. Don't hold the past against yourself, because you deserve so much more. There comes a point where you might feel like everything is your fault, that your relationship failed because of something you did- and it very well might have, but don't let that be a reason to not move on. It's okay to be vulnerable; to feel something again. Whatever moving on looks like for you, don't feel like you aren't worth being happy again.
I want you to know that is it okay to feel like this. No one can prepare you for what it feels like to lose someone who was such a big part of your life- but things get better. Know that even though you may feel lost right now, tomorrow is always a new day.
I wish you all the best,