His parents had just left, He came upstairs and shut the door behind him. He grinned and climbed on top of me, acting as though I wanted this. I said "No I'm not in the mood" and, "No I don't want it." He continued to do things, caress my neck, my jaw and my body continually asking "Are you sure?" and "What about now?" My response stayed the same. I began to shove his body off mine. He was in the process of taking off his clothes, I felt uneasy, afraid, I was too far from home to call for help. I just wanted his dad to bust the door open and get him off me but that didn't happen. His parents were gone for a while. I wanted my parents, my family to save me from the situation. I knew it wouldn't be possible at the time and I did the only thing I thought I could right then. I closed my eyes and prayed for it to stop and I prayed for forgiveness, as though it was my fault, I tried so hard to forget about that night, I wanted things to go about as they normally had, but that wasn't the case, no, I came back home and every night I spent alone on my bed, watching the clock remembering the exact time it had stopped, remembering when the pain had stopped, the aches, the hurt in my soul, the piece of me he took away. Every night all I ever thought about was how it was my fault. How I am supposed to please other people, help others, take care of others, I felt as though it was meant to be that it happened to me. I felt like a disgrace to the two people I had told, But I never told them what happened. Seeing the look in their eyes, feeling the disappointment of a child I was, broke me. It took six months to come out with the truth and why I was no longer the innocent daughter she once had. It wasn't until six months after that night, constantly thinking about that clock and watching the red minutes change as I felt a part of my body and soul leave me, that I had built up enough courage to tell my story and stop denying the fact that it was rape, that I had to accept the fact that I was a victim and it's been two years since that night and I am tired of seeing that Fucking clock and I am not carrying the blame with me anymore. It was not my fault, rape is rape. No means no, even in other situations silence means no. Just because you're with someone does not mean you give consent. He ruined my past, but I'll be damned if he ruins my future. I am no longer carrying the title of a "victim" I'm not allowing my past to bring my future down. I have kept the faith and hope even in the worst situations and God has taken care of me along the way. This is Goodbye to the past me. What sharing my story has done is make me feel more empowered and helps me to love myself and realize I am no longer the broken girl. What I want others to learn from my past is: Don't be afraid to say no, Don't be afraid to fight back, You're not going through this alone, and we can make it through. There is no story too small, and there is no reason to believe it's your fault. Rape redefined me, I am no longer a victim. I am worthy, I am loved, I am beautiful and I am deserving.
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Summer is almost here!
Yes, summer is almost here.. so what should we remember
1. The beach with your family
2. The pool (either in your yard or a friend's)
3. Wearing bug spray
4. No school
5. No responsibilities
7. Swimming lessons - harder than they looked
8. Playing at the playground
9. Sleepovers after a day of swimming
10. Vacations (usually to a beach town)
11. Going to the lake (if you weren't near the ocean)
12. The sun was so bright - and squinting if you didn't want to wear your sunglasses
13. Sprinklers - and running through them
14. Being forced to wear sunscreen (and somehow still getting burnt)
15. Taking the best nap after a hot day at the pool and a cool shower
16. Running around with friends until it was dinner time
17. Getting stung by bees (this one sucked)
18. And getting bitten by mosquitoes (you hated them)
19. Mini golf
20. Summer camp!
21. Ice cream truck (and mom saying that we had ice cream at home)
22. Ice cream shops and creameries
23. Seeing that it was still light out through your window when you went to bed at 8
24. That feeling that summer would last forever
25. Days spent hiding from the heat watching Disney Channel and Nickelodeon
26. Wearing your hair in a pony because it was too hot to wear down
27. Riding the waves at the beach
28. Sand castles
29. Summer reading lists
30. Hiking with your family
32. Family reunions
33. Sitting on the porch or deck to esacpe the heat
34. Not having to work
35. Day trips
Hint: It's just about everything!
Millennials: the generation everyone loves to hate. The babies of 1980 to 1995 take a lot of heat. I mean, we inherited a crashed economy, earn stagnant wages, live with crippling student loan debt, and try to enact change in a rigged system but our affinity for avocado toast and use of technology has wrecked society as we know it! As a tail end millennial, I wanted to know what I was ruining and, like any other annoying millennial would, I did some research. I scoured the internet, read online newspapers and scrolled through every listicle I could find. So, in case you needed another reason to resent the millennial in your life, here are the 100 industries we've killed, things we've ruined or concepts we've destroyed.
We're killing movie theaters, too
Sorry, but Netflix and Hulu beat cable every time.
Once again, Netflix and Hulu
Find me a more expensive and boring sport, I dare you.
NFL and college footballGiphy
CTE, concussions and permanent brain damage just aren't our style.
Our trust issues with the banks go way back... like all the way back to 2008.
Because we don't take them? or because we take too many? or is just our presence on vacation a problem?
But is anyone sad to see them go?
Still not sure how, why or when this happened but apparently it's our fault.
This one may actually be our fault
My $10 bag from Forever 21 will work just fine, thank you.
We're not huge fans of broken ankles and permanent foot damage.
Macy's, Sears, Bon-Ton, JC Penney's... we've killed them all
Diamonds are little out of our price range but we can afford to propose with a ring pop!
The Anti-Aging industry
Sorry for trying to save the planet
The Toyota Scion
Ding-Dong the doorbell's dead!
Online shopping is the only way to go.
GrubHub and Postmates... all day, everyday
Regular Yogurt is next on our list of "Things no one liked but will complain about us ruining"
Honestly, I don't think millennials know what this is.
I find this one very hard to believe
But... how do you kill a specific body part??
Does this mean millennials are less possessed? have less demons? someone please elaborate
Wait, I thought millennials spent all of their money on avocados and Sunday brunch?!
I can't pay for a fancy dinner but we can split my ramen noodles!
We killed brunch and lunch?! two meals?! say it ain't so!
Did we kill just the paper ones? or the cloth ones too? Are we wiping our mouths on our sleeves? on our arms? the tablecloth? Who knew killing napkins would cause so many questions
R.I.P every local newspaper ever
The 2016 Election
*insert deep breathing here*
Corporate spending in elections? Russian interference? Corrupt politicians? Wrong! The correct answer was: Millennials
Last I checked, we we're still here... but what do I know?
The American Dream
The European Union
So is Brexit our fault, too?
I'm hoping this meant the concept of a "boss"... because actually killing your boss is taking the "Millennials kill everything" way too far.
9 to 5
Probably because most of us have to work 9 to 9 to make ends meet
This one should have been dead a long time ago
Goodbye, water cooler chats. May we never meet again.
The restaurant in NYC? the concept? Both?!
Loyalty in general
Fear of commitment: Part 1
Fear of commitment: Part 2
On the count of 3! 1...2...3.... Renters forever!
Personal Debt Industry
The tree hugging, go green, recycle everything millennials are also the ones killing the trees: a conspiracy theory
The Oil Industry
We like our glaciers frozen, our cities above sea level, and our polar bears alive and well
The Focus Group
These shouldn't have been around in the first place
The crippling student loan debt? The stagnant wages for teachers? The underfunding of public schools? the school to prison pipeline? All of those are our fault? yes? oh, okay great
Gen X's Retirement
Sorry, mom and dad!
Because "It's all good" is obviously not an acceptable replacement for "you're welcome"
Face to Face Interaction
Eye contact isn't our best skill
The Value of Friendship
Kulture, Danger, Payzlie, and Royalty walk into a bar...
We're all scaredy cats
Fish Hand handshakes for life!
This month, Odyssey brings about awareness & normality to conversations around mental health from our community.
It's no secret that even in 2018 our country still struggles with discrimination of all kinds. Society labels individuals by the color of their skin, heritage, religion, sexuality, gender, size, and political beliefs. You are either privileged or you're not. However, here's the thing, anxiety doesn't care about your privilege. Anxiety doesn't discriminate.
If you don't believe me, check out these statistics from the US National Library of Medicine and National Institutes of Health on the prevelance of anxiety in white, African American, Hispanic Americans, and Asian Americans. Below you can see that the percentage of individuals struggling with anxiety disorders in each race is pretty close from race to race. Of course, these are only diagnosed cases of anxiety disorders, so it is possible that the data is skewed if people are unable to see a psychologist.
I'm not saying that everyone with anxiety struggles with the same kind or has the same fears. No one's story is the same. The anxiety that someone like me struggles with is probably a lot different than someone who is conflicted about their sexuality or someone who is the subject of racial profiling. However, that doesn't mean that people who don't have to deal with those struggles don't battle anxiety too.
My friend recently wrote an article about anxiety and a lot of people didn't take her seriously because of her privilege. But let me tell you, the chemicals in your brain could go haywire on you regardless of the amount of money in your bank account, the size of your jeans, or the color of your skin. Anxiety isn't rational. It doesn't care if everything is fine and dandy in your life— it will send off fight or flight signals to your brain regardless.
Anxiety doesn't care about your place in society because it's not logical. It doesn't make sense.
After surviving a year of college and watching "Clueless" countless times, I've come to the conclusion that college boy charm is very much a real thing and it's very very attractive. It's easiest explained through Paul Rudd's character, Josh, in "Clueless". The boy who has a grip on his life and is totally charming. In this article, I will list the qualities of a specimen with College Boy Charm, to help you identify him at your next party or other social events.
He's wearing a dopey smileGiphy
Why is he smiling like that? We don't know, but it is very cute. He smiles like the guy who led the orientation group that you all definitely were crushing on.
You are very nervous to talk to him
The joke of the matter is he looks so friendly and charming, it's scary.
He's barely drunk
When you ask him how many he had to drink and he says "Only one beer".
(●♡∀♡) He's so nonchalant about his self-control (´∀｀)♡
He's what high school you envisioned all college boys would look like
High school you were so ready to go to college and finally date REAL MEN. You imagined these good, tidy, studious, boys. Upon arrival at your campus, you realized how rare these mythical creatures are. They are very hard to track down as vaping has become common practice among many college brothers, but when they are found it suddenly becomes very clear that he is the one you imagined all throughout high school.
As Tik-Tokers rise to fame, do their 'copy-cat' dances deserve the clout?
Oh, the wonders of social media. Trends come and go just as quick as a story on Instagram, everyone posting for their shot at fifteen minutes of fame, and the ever growing following of a new type of celebrity- social media influencers and content creators. Everyone who owns a smartphone probably has Instagram, Twitter, Snapchat, and now Tik-Tok, as it's growing to be a major social media platform for teenagers and young adults. Tik Tok became popular in the United States in late 2019 and since then has grown a considerable amount. Personally, I was one to make fun of Tik-Tok and say it was a dumb app like Musical.ly or Triller, and now months later, I spend more time on it than I do on Instagram.
The amount of creativity that goes into content on Tik-Tok is more than I would've ever expected when I first downloaded the app. People create "point of view" clips that are mini-movie plots for the audience, supposedly easy choreographed dances (that I somehow still can't do as well as Charli D'Amelio), smoothly edited "transition" videos, and of course common "thirst trap" or lip-syncing videos from both boys and girls.
As can be seen from reading this article and even skimming your own For You Page, Tik-Tok allows its users to create as much as they please and whatever they please. However, it's all just for the fun of it until content gets a significant amount of likes and views. People like D'Amelio and Addison Rae have blown up as a result of making and recreating Tik-Tok dances. D'Amelio has over 80 million followers and Rae is close behind with 58 million. That's more followers than some A-List celebrities have on Instagram! These girls, and many others, have gotten so popular so quickly, that they have made a ridiculous amount of money in a ridiculously short amount of time from their videos, ad revenue, sponsors, etc. Their road to fame has been seen as controversial to other teenagers asking, why did they get to become famous for doing something as simple as recreating dances? D'Amelio, according to Celebrity Net Worth, is worth four million dollars and made that fortune in under a year! Rae, according to Celebrity Net Worth, is worth two million dollars.
D'Amelio and Rae's road to stardom has brought many opportunities on and off of social media. D'Amelio is now an official spokesperson for Hollister Co. jeans and has her own coffee order, The Charli, on the Dunkin' Donuts menu (super jealous of this one..I get coffee everyday...Hey Dunkin', where's 'The Alexia'?!). She also collaborated with Morphe on a new makeup brand called Morphe2. Similarly, Rae co-founded her own makeup company, Item Beauty, and works with American Eagle Jeans. Soon, D'Amelio and Rae are both going to be voice actresses in animated movies on the Big Screen! The countless other sponsors and sources of income that have enhanced the celebrity status of these girls are also enriching other Tik-Tok content creators, such as "Snitchery" (Eleanor Barnes), Loren Gray, Abby Roberts, and more.
The issue at hand, in my opinion, is why have these girls gotten so famous in under a year? What have they done that made them stand out from the content of the other millions of users on Tik-Tok? These girls have mostly made "transition" videos and videos of themselves recreating dances. What about their videos has been so captivating that we have all stopped in our tracks on our For You Page to watch and "like" their 15-to-60 second video clips? The way I see it, we all want to be a part of the trends. Whether that means buying new clothes or watching certain people, teenagers always want to fit in and not be the odd one out. Regardless of whether content creators like D'Amelio and Rae are going to be around for a while or just a flash in the pan, they are what's popular now, so everyone wants to go along for the ride. Another reason we all follow and like these simple, yet viral videos is natural human envy, the idea 'why are they so famous if I can do these dances too.'The desire to be financially comfortable and famous is something we all have, but many of us don't have the mindset and motivation to make it happen. The wealth and fame of Tik-Tok creators is inspirational, but perhaps it demotivates users from working hard the traditional way to gain wealth, i.e starting a business, working multiple jobs, etc. and promotes the shortcut to easy money.
Now comes the ethical question, are they deserving of the riches that have been handed to them? How much work really goes into making their content that generates thousands of dollars from sponsors? It seems like they get wealth and celebrity status from not doing anything worthwhile. For instance, Rae is at a high point in her career, so high in fact, that she has befriended the Kardashians, who are also up for debate on whether or not they deserve all the fame they have bestowed upon them. Solely because of Rae's popularity, Kourtney Kardashian posted on Instagram a picture with her in the pool on August 24th. Society has come to a point where it is letting people just like you and me "go viral," for sometimes no reason other than our physical appearance and our trendy clothes. Are D'Amelio and Rae famous for ridiculous Tik-Tok dances or have they put in hard work, such that their prosperity should not be questioned?
Youtube is a competing platform that arguably requires a lot of work and talent to make a stable living. Booming creators on Youtube tend to have a crew and tool kit of equipment in order to make high quality videos. Youtuber Berlin Edmond, a gamer and entertainer, has a paid editor, multiple cameras, professional mics and headphones, lighting equipment, and exceptional computer monitors to give his audience a good viewing experience. Many Youtubers who do this much for each video they create don't get nearly as much recognition or opportunity as content creators on Tik Tok. Generally, successful youtubers have been making videos for years, while people like D'Amelio and Rae have rocketed to fame seemingly overnight. For example, Shane Dawson (even though he's cancelled) continually made videos since 2008 that generated a stream of revenue to afford his lifestyle. In 2020 he stopped making videos, but that was after 10+ years of creating videos and gaining a following. Can Tik-Tokers say the same for the work they put into each video? Most just need a standard ring light and their phone, then they're set to make viral videos. Regarding monetization, Tik-Tok created a one billion dollar fund to pay creators who apply. This source of income gives Tik-Tokers a way to make a living off of undemanding 15-second video clips. While this can be beneficial for smaller, hard working, users, we will have to see where the funds are allocated.
In spite of everything, Tik-Tok has been an amazing outlet for those who choose to make creative content on the platform. Whether or not young personalities such as D'Amelio and Rae deserve their newfound fame, they have become influential idols in the eyes of the young kids watching them. We can only hope that any of the new Tik-Tok celebrities will strive to be good role models for their viewers, and not abuse the power they attain.
1. Brittany Morgan, National Writer's Society
2. Radhi, SUNY Stony Brook
3. Kristen Haddox, Penn State University
4. Jennifer Kustanovich, SUNY Stony Brook
5. Clare Regelbrugge, University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign