5 Realizations Of A College Drop Out

5 Realizations Of A College Drop Out

It's okay to be a failure sometimes.

The older we get, the more we realize that rarely anything goes the way that we plan. There is always a bump in the road and as we grow into ourselves, we learn to overcome these obstacles as they come.

I learned this first hand when I was forced to drop out of college during the spring semester of my freshman year. Here are the five things that this experience has made me realize:

1. How much you miss your hometown

As a high school senior, you want nothing more than to get as far away from your hometown as you physically can, but once you leave, you appreciate it that much more. I never realized how much I missed the general Green Bay area until I moved away.

2. How much I love school

Every student would say they would be more than happy to be done with school and to be able to get an entire semester off, but in reality, it's not true. I want nothing more than to be able to go to class every day, to do homework again, and to keep having the college experiences all of my peers are having instead of watching from the sidelines.

3. How to become an adult

Even though I moved back home, I was still expected to fend for myself and to be an independent adult, such as managing my own money, my own time, and my own job. This made me realize that I needed to leave my old high school job and to accept the fact I'm an adult that needs to work an adult job, hence applying and being hired at one of the biggest transportation companies in the country.

4. How much I was unsure of my major

Once leaving school, I had a lot of time to reflect. Like, a lot. And in that time I became very uncertain of what I wanted to do with my life. I pondered about what type of classes I missed being in the most and what courses I would not waste time taking once I returned to school. The answer to these questions had nothing to do with animals, science, or veterinary medicine, but instead English. This ended with an epiphany that made me change my major the very next day and to pursue the path of becoming a high school English teacher.

5. How to believe in yourself

When I had to face the fact that I had no other choice but to drop out for a semester, I was ashamed. I felt like a failure and hated myself for the life I was now living. In reality, it was not a situation I brought upon myself and once I learned to accept that, I learned how euphoric it feels to know I will be solely putting myself through college the next three years. I will never under appreciate the opportunity of being able to go to college and get my degree.

Dropping out was the hardest decision in my life, but looking back it was the best decision of my life. As a result, I now have an amazing job, I'm completely paying for my school myself, I'm attending UWGB in the fall, I changed my major, and I learned to have confidence. Not everyone has the ideal college experience, such as me, but if you don't, then it's not the end of the world. There is always more to come.

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To The Senior Graduating High School In A Month

"What feels like the end, is often the beginning."

It wasn’t too long ago that I was in your shoes. Just a little over a year ago, I was the senior that had a month left. One month left in the hometown that I grew up in. One month left with the friends that I didn’t want to leave. One month left in the place that I had called “my school” for the past four years. You are probably thinking the same things I thought whenever it came down to only 30 days left. You’re probably scared, nervous, worried, or anxious. Maybe you’re like me and are dying to get out of high school, ready to start a new chapter. Or maybe you aren’t so ready yet. Maybe you’re wishing for a little more time.

As scary as it is, this month you have left will fly by. You’ll blink and you’ll be standing in your cap and gown, waiting for your name to be called to receive your diploma. You’ll look back on your last four years at your school and wonder why time went by so fast. It’ll be bittersweet. However, trust me when I say that you have so much to look forward to. You are about to begin taking the steps to build your future. You are going to grow and learn so much more than any high school class could teach you. You are going to meet amazing people and accomplish amazing things. So, as scared as you might be, I encourage you to take that first step out of your comfort zone and face this world head on. Chase your dreams and work towards your goals. You are smart. You are brave. You are capable of achieving amazing things. All your life, the lessons you have learned have prepared you for this point in your life. You are more than ready.

There are times when you will feel alone, scared, or confused. There are times when it won’t always be easy. But those are the times when you will shine the most because I know you will work through whatever problems you may face. Don’t think of the bad times as a terrible thing. Use them all as learning experiences. As author Joshua Marine once said, “Challenges are what make life interesting and overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.”

You might think that this is the end. However, it’s not. This is only the beginning. Trust me when I say that the adventures and opportunities you are about to face are nothing compared to high school. Whether you are going to college, going to work, or something else, this is the beginning of your journey called life. It will be exciting, it will be terrifying, but it will all be worth it.

So, as you walk out of your high school for the very last time, I encourage you to take a deep breath. Relax. You’ll always have the memories to look back on from high school. But your time is now, it begins today. Embrace it.

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Mourning The Loss

She had no direction and already felt like she had lost herself, anyway.


She wore her heart on her sleeve but covered her innermost feeling with laughs, smiles, and awkward jokes that only some thought were funny at all. She was happy on the outside and this got her to the place where she is now. Faking it till she made it made sense until she realized she didn't know what she was making it to.

Regardless, she was a bright light in the hallways of her grade school filled with small plastic chairs and brown square desks. She acted most days as a clown in the classroom in order for her to get some kind of attention. She worked on Accelerated Math and reading books extensively, and in her free time her studying habits were almost obsessive.

Brianna Gavin

When asked to do anything for anyone, she dropped all of what she was doing to help.

High school came around and after being separated from her best friend going to a different school, she knew this time she really had to reinvent herself. At first, she stayed in the bubble of grade school friends and found it hard to ever speak up about anything.

Brianna Gavin

She kept her mouth shut for the first year of high school and lived in the shadows of her siblings' bad decisions. That first year, teachers even called her "little Gavin".

As sophomore year of high school came around, she met a teacher that would forever change her life and brought her out of the shadow of her siblings past. She was the first teacher in that high school to see her as her own person, different from her family.

After meeting this teacher, she stepped into the role of being a leader. She went to summer leadership camps and became actively involved in the Social Committee of Student Council. She created a service club and became the president. She got over 100 hours of service done each year, went on mission trips, led and spoke her story at retreats, went to every football game dressed UP in the theme, and still had time to get a high GPA.

Brianna Gavin

She was KILLING it.

In the mornings before school started, she sat in her car for five minutes by herself to separate her home life from her school life. She listened to "One Man Can Change The World" by Big Sean and sang the words to herself as she began to put on a mask for the day.

Brianna Gavin

She was sometimes a clown. She'd walk around the hallways and go to class while eating boxes of cereal and constantly made jokes about ANYTHING going on. One thing you could always count on her for was authenticity and hope.

Brianna Gavin

Even at her job teaching kids how to swim, the second she came out in her brightly colored swimsuit, her kids were already there and ready to say hi to her. Kids would make her cards and families constantly asked her to babysit and told her stories of how much their kids loved her.

One day during school, she was awarded with a scholarship called "You Can Count On Me", given to her because of how reliable, dependable, and important she was to all those around her. She remembered the words that were said about her when she received the scholarship and those were the driving force for her to continue helping others and being there for herself.

But then came college. And with the goodbye to all of her friends, family, and popular school life also came the goodbye to herself.

Brianna Gavin

She now became something she didn't want to be anymore. She stayed in her room, struggled extensively with mental illness, and looked in the mirror without knowing what she was looking at. She didn't have many friends and she felt alone most of the time.

With change and loss, she lost herself. She, in a sense, died as soon as her relationships with those close friends and family died. And no matter how hard she tries, she will never be the happy, energetic, inspiring, motivational, giving, faithful, loving person she once was.

The truth she has to share...she is gone.

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