To my dearest grandma who would be so proud,
I miss you, think about you, and wish that you could be apart of my now. It is hard knowing that I spent my childhood thinking you would never go away. As a little girl, I thought of you as a best friend and an everlasting companion.
My life has changed a lot since you have left and I wish every day that you could be in the present with me, be a call away, and have the wise tale advice you use to give so carelessly.
I have advice that I carry within my heart each and every day thanks to you:
1. "Come while the moon is shining bright"
You always taught me to live each moment to the fullest. Having fun and living stress-free is actually a key to life happiness. This quote means to share your love with anyone who is willing to receive it any time of the day, night and our lives.
2. Be smart
A smart woman can accomplish anything. I felt you always knew that I was going to find my own path to secure happiness. You always pushed and encouraged me to be smart, thoughtful and make careful decisions to show the world what I am truly capable of.
3. The countryside is where your heart lies
"Less is more," she used to always say. I would sit at the table with my grandma and share my dreams of one day living in a huge city where hundreds of lights and busy people surrounded me. She knew that was what I wanted but continued to show me the importance of keeping home close to my heart. As she was from the country, for the rest of my life I will appreciate canned-jelly and a big open field.
4. Love is important
From your past, you have instilled in my head and heart that I am meant to be loved and not by any love. The way you loved me was simple, genuine, and carefree. You taught me to love in the same way. Because of you, I know that I am supposed to be loved for the rest of my life with a kind heart, good soul and a person that will stand by my side forever and always. A simple love is what I am looking for, thanks to you.
You have taught me some of the greatest lessons that I will carry with me for the rest of my life. Since you have been gone, I am proud to tell you that I have grown into a confident woman who isn't scared to take this life on and live each and every moment to my fullest capability.
I wish I could tell you about college, but I feel as you already know. There have been times in the craziness of life when I have felt a sense of relief and know everything will be okay. I think you might be out there.
Grandma, I know I am becoming the woman you have always wanted to see me become. I am living each day to the fullest, taking in this worlds beauty and keeping you in my mind and heart. Thank you for opening my eyes before you had to leave me. You will continue to be in my prayers.