Senior year of college is the weirdest year of your life. This year is the last year you’ll ever feel like a kid again (though it’s likely that you stopped feeling like a kid a long time ago). The days start racing by and before you know it, you’re halfway through the fall semester and time to delay adulthood is running out. Everyone says it, but really start appreciating the time you have left as an undergrad, because once you’re done life is about to get a whole lot weirder.

1. It’s your last everything…Where do I begin?

Seriously, it’s so weird to realize how many things you’ve been doing for so long are going to be the last time you do them. It’s your last first day of school, last time you schedule, last time you have to do ice breakers (thank God), and even your last few walks around campus.

2. You won’t see the same people everyday.

No matter how big your school is by your senior year, your campus shrinks. The kid you’ve seen everyday since freshman year and the girl that has somehow wound up in all of your classes will no longer be staples in your everyday life after graduation.

3. You’ll likely never live with your roommates again.

I think about this ALL THE TIME now, and I get sad about it every day. I think about the fact that we won’t have silly dance parties anymore listening to old Miley Cyrus songs, and we won’t be going out just to get Ben and Jerry’s at any given time. I’ll never have these people that I’ve shared a living space with for four years around me every single day and that just makes me so sad.

4. After college comes…the future.

Personally, I’ve always struggled with change and fearing the unknown. But in the past, the next big thing wasn’t all that big in the grand scheme of things; starting middle school and high school, even starting college doesn’t seem to be that big of a deal now that I’m coming to the end of my college career. Now I have to figure out what’s coming next and I’ve had so many friends tell me that they’re in the same boat, they don’t really know what’s coming next. It’s both terrifying and exhilarating, many of us will never be students again, and those of us going right to grad school still have no idea what the heck we’re doing, because we’re just hoping we’ll get in somewhere that we like.

Every day, someone asks me what it’s like to be a senior in college. Some days, it’s pretty great. I know my way around campus, I get to schedule first, I finally know the people in my classes. But most days, I’m feeling extremely nostalgic and shocked that my life is coming at me as quickly as it is. I’m excited for the next chapter of my life, but honestly I have no idea what to expect, so until then, I’m just gonna fake it til I make it.