I am now working on week 6. Still going strong! I must say in advance, happy Thanksgiving everyone! I hope everyone has a great meal with their families (or family equivalents). I wanted to make this week focused on happy poems, but lots of things are still in my head. It’s kind of all over the place here. There are a few sad ones and a lot pieces focused on a subject.
As usual, for those of you who do not know why I am doing this, I will quote my first article here:
“I have realized that a great way to keep sane when you’re busy (especially with very tedious work) is to keep your creativity flowing. So recently, I have decided to start a sort of creative goal for myself. I’m going to write 365 poems. That is one every day without stopping. This is all free form and off the cuff. So if it’s short, long, good, and/or crap, that is up for you to decide.”
Please enjoy.
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This one is kind of like a chant of acceptance. Kind of gospely actually, but it may motivate someone to accept the difficulty in this world, as well as yourself and others. It is quite redundant, but this is an experiment after all!
November, 14th 2016
35 of 365
Accept
Accept my weaknesses
Accept my strengths
Accept myself for who I am
Accept my current self
Accept what I can’t have
Accept what I do have
Accept that there’s good
Accept that there’s evil
Accept the world as it is
Accept what is impossible
Accept opportunity
Accept you as you are
Accept you for who you’re not
Accept the love I am given
Accept the love that’s disproven
Accept that not everyone will like me
Accept that someone will always love me
Accept that I can achieve
Accept that I will fail
Accept this beautiful world
Accept that there will be differing opinions
Accept that death will always happen
Accept life as it is
Accept love
Accept care
Accept friendship
Accept despair
Accept the unfortunate
Accept what is different
Accept change
Except war
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I've been listening to a lot of shoegaze music lately (Highly recommend the album Loveless by MBV), and the complex haze of sound that permeates through this style of music gets you into a haze. Kind of like a dream. This poem is inspired by that sound as well as the odd, often unsure and impossible world of dreams. Hence the contradictory and ambiguous lines.
November, 15th 2016
36 of 365
Living a Dream
Lost in a dream
A dense haze of grain
Deep blues and purples
Swimming in sound
Compressed in emotion
Every touch has feeling
Segmented memories
Reliving past events
Through the dense haze
Deep greens and yellows
Etched in love
A sheer feeling
Untouchably tangible
A pressured force
Inside of thought
Underlying substance
Through the intensity
Climax of a complex
Feeling everything
Awoken from this
Cannot remember
The experience lives
In reminiscence
Living a dream
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I was watching a rather sad romance. So I decided to write a poem based on it. Sorry, I lied that this week would be all happy poems. Hahaha!
November, 16th 2016
37 of 365
I Can't Sleep Tonight
I can’t get you out of my head
I think that you know why
I’ll distract myself instead
I can’t sleep tonight
Why do I still get up early?
Too damn early to know
The truth has been said, surely
Oh God I love you so.
But fuck, these thoughts in my head!
I think that you know why
I’ll distract myself instead
The feelings just won’t die
What is the real answer?
Will I find it sometime?
No matter my manner
You’re always on my mind
Always on my mind
I know it hurts you
I was always out of line
What else could I do?
I wanted your time
Is there an easier way?
Only time allows this
What else can I say
To change this psychosis?
Even when we’re through
And there’s nothing to show
Yes it is true
I still love you so.
Oh God I love you so.
Always in my head
Now you know why
I’ll distract myself instead
Because I can’t sleep tonight
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Once again, not another happy one. This piece has kind of a folk touch to it with the repetition at the end of each stanza.
November, 16th 2016
38 of 365
Feeling Sick
So feeble is my countenance
Physical state in disarray
Accepted my repentance
I thought I would be okay
My mind isn't relevant
I should shut it off anyway
My mind isn't relevant
I should shut it off anyway
I feel so sick
So damn sick of it all
If I had to pick...
But that's not my call
My mind isn't relevant
And I'd still take the fall
My mind isn't relevant
And I'd still take the fall
I know where I belong
I tried my best to behave
You'll hear my voice dissolve
As you see my name
My mind isn't relevant
That's not going to change
My mind isn't relevant
It will always be that way
Do I really deserve this?
Can I change who I've become?
So shallow and worthless...
Or was I that way all along?
My mind isn't relevant
Was I that way all along?
My mind isn't relevant
Was I that way all along?
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I've been listening to a lot of Bob Dylan recently (he's a great source of inspiration for poetry). I tend to listen to the sad songs more often, so I made a piece inspired by that. Yes, it is sad again. But more in a realizing and accepting way this time.
November, 18th 2016
39 of 365
My Immaturity
Governed by my own immaturity
I use it as a way to express my impurity
And use my kindness as collateral
Really just to bolster my ego
You should be happy with yourself
Reminiscing over the places we sat
If your happiness is with someone else
Don't let me make you feel guilty for that
To take relationships so far
To miss the signs that were there all along
My immaturity permeates the show
I can't accept the truth no matter how much I know
I need to accept the cards I've been dealt
And know when to fold when there isn't even a pair
Is this how I've always felt?
I think we've both learned out fair share
Governed by my own immaturity
I use it as a way to express my impurity
And use my kindness as collateral
Really just to bolster my ego
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I figured I've written about enough sad things at the moment. I decided to express just a bit of my love for something that is very near and dear to my heart. I'm sure I could do a poem of this subject better justice, but I could always write about such a broad subject in a million different ways!
November, 19th 2016
40 of 365
Love of Music
It gives me a lot
Provides support when I have no one
Tells me what I want to hear
Motivates me to persevere
Shows me who I'm not
Makes me want to meet someone
Helps me overcome my fears
And it keeps my mind clear
I wouldn't know what to do without it
I can smile, pout, cry, and laugh about it
It makes me want to live
Fills me with creative energy
Brings me back to myself
I would never turn down its help
Gives me more than I could give
Shows me so many realities
More than I've ever felt
Means more than it tells
I wouldn't know what to do without it
I can smile, pout, cry, and laugh about it
With so much variety
And so many genres
We tend to get high and mighty
When you don't agree with us
It really shouldn't matter
What anyone else thinks
Cancel out that mental chatter
And let your mind sink
That's what music can bring
Makes everyone who shouldn't, sing
That's what music can bring
Brings you to a world of new understanding
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I was looking at an older Wii game called "Lost In Shadow" which is a puzzle platformer completely played using shadows. I thought the concept was quite interesting. This piece is based on shadows, simple as that.
November, 20th 2016
41 of 365
My Constant Shadow
Following me
Like a clingy lover
Always there
Just under the cover
Only out in the daylight
Or when a light shines bright
Disappearing into the night
My constant shadow
What we all have in common
Whether I can see or not
It will always be following
Unwittingly being taught
All the things I know
The places that I go
Even if I don’t know
My constant shadow
Never changing
I can call it mine
Yours may look the same
But we all have different lines
Riding so close behind
Like a past I cannot follow
Even when I’m alone I’ll always find
My ever constant shadow
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Thank you so much for reading. I hope you enjoyed! Please let me know if you have any ideas for me to write about, criticism, or more!
