Many people don't really understand how far someone is pushed when they are thinking about committing suicide. I have been there myself, so I understand how much time I spent depressed and wishing I could do it. The thing I didn't realize was how much it would have affected people and things in my life. After I went through some therapy and learned how to handle and deal with my depression, I was made aware of all of this.
1. Although right now you don’t think it’s true, your family and friends will miss you terribly.
I know that at my darkest times, I have continually thought, "They won't actually miss me. It will just be better for them." The truth is: my mom would have been beside herself with the grief of losing me. I used to think she never really cared, and it would be so much better for her if I had committed suicide. Honestly, it was the other way around.
2. The beauty of nature is something you will miss.
Have you ever just stopped whatever you are doing and took a deep breath, looking around you and seeing the beauty of nature? In the midst of an anxiety attack, one thing I try to do is just that. Sometimes we get so caught up in what we are doing, or how upset we are, we forget to just look at what all God has given us: the singing of the birds, the smell of wildflowers, the feel of a slight breeze, the warmth of the sun.
3. Whatever you are going through is only making you stronger.
Some hardships seem to be too much to bear, but every single one you go through makes you stronger in the end. After losing two people close to me in a span of three months, I never thought my 14 years old self would make it. I had never experienced losing someone close to me, and to have it happen twice was beyond heartbreaking. Recovering from those deaths wasn't something I saw in my future. I didn't realize at the time that going through all of that was molding me into the person I am today, three years later. I know that if I had to go through events like that again, it would be hard, but I would only become a stronger person.
If you or anyone you know is thinking about committing suicide, please call the suicide prevention hotline 1-800-273-8255. Even if you think one of these isn't true for you, there is someone or something in your life that will be affected in a negative way by your action. Reach out to someone you trust if you need help. Thankfully, I had friends who loved me enough to help me find help. I love y'all.
