Dear 2015,
Where do I begin? I remember meeting you a few glasses of champagne into January 1st. I want to start off by saying, I had the highest hopes for you and honestly, you did a pretty good job upholding those. I came to you at the beginning of our relationship with a resolution: to be truly happy. I know it sounds just as cliche as when I said it the first time, but damn, it was a good one.
So 2015, as our relationship draws to a close, I just wanted to thank you for some of my favorite moments.
Thank you for helping me find my true friends.
2014 was rough for me. Back then, I thought friendship was based more on quantity and not quality. Now when you came around, I learned how to weave out the ones who didn't care to put effort towards our relationships. With that help, I can now see who will really be there for me when I need it. Though I may not have met them in 2015, they stuck with me through it and I know they will be there from now on.
Thank you for helping me reach my true potential.
I've always been one to doubt my abilities. I'd be lying if I said I magically became smarter and started to do everything better in 2015. That's just unrealistic. But as 2015 was happening, I gained more confidence and started trying harder at the things I loved doing. I became more involved in events, helped others, and worked hard at school. In the end it all paid off as I have never felt better about where I stand than I do now heading into 2016.
Thank you for helping me love myself.
This one is huge. Insecurities are everything and that's so much of what holds a person back. We all have them whether it's our features or the way we act. If I learned one thing from 2015, it's that insecurities are stupid. Who cares what other people think about you? Care about what you think of yourself. I was insecure about my body for a very long time because I have scoliosis and when someone looks at me for a long time, they can see that I'm almost lop-sided. I used to get so down about it till I realized it's all in my head. Yeah, I really do have scoliosis and yeah I am uneven but does anyone actually care? No, and if they do, screw them. No one deserves to feel insecure about anything, you're beautiful the way you are.
Thank you for giving me opportunities.
It's amazing what can happen when you simply put yourself out there. Between trying new foods to traveling to a new country for a long period of time, it's amazing the things you can experience. There are endless possibilities in the world if you just step out of your comfort zone.
Thank you for the memories.
Thank you for coming into my life at my favorite place with my favorite people. Thank you for letting me meet new people. Thank you for making me a strong enough person to walk away from something so toxic to my happiness. Thank you for later rewarding me with tons of different forms of happiness. Thank you for making sure karma always did his job. But most of all, thank you for helping me find myself again.
So to end this letter I'd like to say thank you for all you did. I've grown so much this year and I cannot wait to see what the future has in store for me. I will forever hold your memories close to my heart and I will never forget you. I can honestly say 2015 made me happy, but that just raises my expectations for 2016. With that, I haven't made my resolution yet, but I'm thinking I might broaden this one past simple happiness. I can already tell 2016 is going to be crazier than 2015 ever was. I can't wait to meet you 2016, please don't disappoint.
Sincerely, Holly
