Did you ever look up to an older family member when you were younger and thought wow, they have their life together. I know I did that a lot.

I remember being a freshman in high school looking at my older cousins who were graduating high school and going to college and thinking, they have everything together. I can't wait to be older and have my life together, and know what I want to do with my life, and what I where I want to go to college.

Here I am two years into college, two different majors in, still at my first college, but second guessing everything.

Twenty isn't the magic number that allows you to have your life together. Some people have their lives together by the time they are 18. Some people don't have their lives together until their 30. Some people don't ever get their lives together, and that's okay. It is okay to not have your life together, and it is okay to have your life together.

I think that is the problem with me, and I know some other people like me, is that we second guess everything. We second guess whether or not we are doing the best thing for ourselves. Are we making the most beneficial decision for our future? Are we going to look back on our college years and wished we had transferred schools just to see what could have been somewhere else? Are we content with who we're with? Can we see ourselves with them for the rest of our lives?

I know some people are coming into the second semester of their sophomore year, like me, and they are still in their original major, and haven't changed. I'm happier with where I have come with my major, but I am not completely satisfied with what I'm doing. Could I see myself doing what I'm learning about in class? Absolutely, I enjoy it. Just because I enjoy it now, will I enjoy it down the road?

I know that when I was looking up to my cousins who were my age, it seemed like they had their lives together, but if you were to really digest what they were going through, they were going through the same things that we were. We are 20. We are confused, we are the age between being treated like an adult, and like a teenager. I know my mom was married at my age, and that is honestly one of the most frightening things to think about. People are having babies and getting married, and I'm still washing my colors with my whites.

We are twenty sometings and it's okay that we don't have our lives together.