18 Thoughts And 1 Piece of Hope

18 Thoughts And 1 Piece of Hope

Short thoughts about eighteen different aspects of my life from the past eighteen years, and one hope for the next.

On Saturday, August 5th I turned nineteen. Generally, it's not a milestone year, but I still think it's an important one to recognize. After all it is the year when "adulting" really starts kicking in. If you've read any of my previous articles or know me personally you will know that my last eighteen years of life have been anything but normal or easy, but they have been mine in a beautiful collection that is my story. That being said, here are eighteen thoughts on eighteen different pieces in my life from the last eighteen years, and one hope for the new year. Pray that this will be a blessing to you and that you would know how great full I am to have you in my life.

1. God

The relationship I cherish most of all, and the one that is the hardest fought. I screw up so many times, yet He shows me so much mercy, love, and forgiveness. There's not enough seconds in a forever for me to say how thankful I am for everything he has done. He is my rock, my God is who he says he is. He is my father and I love Him.

2. Mom

The greatest superhero I will ever know. We have bumped countless times, but I know that you love me through it all. You are an incredible role model of how one should act and respond to the daily struggles of life. You also poses a rare, genuine quality of care and understanding that needs to be made more common in today's society. All of your life you have committed yourself to serving God, providing for your kids, and helping families throughout the community. Though your riches on earth aren't great, your riches in heaven will be, so get ready for long lines and a heavy crown. You amaze me everyday, and I am forever grateful that God put us together. Much love.

3. Kaylie

I'm laughing already, not because you're funny, but because we've shared too many memories together, good, bad, and ugly! Your obsession with beauty bloggers and Youtubers always makes me laugh because I think they're kind of pointless. That being said, you have become a beautiful young adult who is not afraid to show her real self. It is a quality I admire in you greatly, one that I hope to achieve myself. Don't doubt your importance in this world; you are seen, you are known. Now, I just wish you'd be a little more organized. I can't wait to see how the next chapter of your life unfolds as you enter your senior year. Cheers!

4. Kendra

You are incredible. You have a heart of gold and a beautiful childlike approach to life. You don't let your disabilities define who you are, and you work hard to improve on the things you do struggle with. You are always there to lend a helping hand to anyone who needs it. Your love for others and God radiates from you, and you are a beautiful light in this dark world. Never doubt who you are because you are incredible. Keep smiling.

5. Church

A second home. Filled with people who are like family. From the beginning, the church has been nothing but generous, accepting, and loving towards my family, and we cannot say thank you enough. We would not have a lot of things in our life right now if it weren't for the church coming alongside of us. Through every season of our life the church has always been there for us, and I am so grateful that God placed us here.

6. Friends

The ones who make me smile and laugh like I never thought I could. From crazy bus rides, school trips, musicals, p.e. class, spontaneous adventures, and everything in between. You have helped sweeten the bitterness of life. For whichever season of my life you entered into, just know that I love you and I am so thankful for you. Always keep in touch and always be ready for a hug attack!

7. Art

The thing that runs through my veins seamlessly. Whether it's appreciating someone else's or creating my own, art has always captivated me like no other. A creation is always wandering in the back of my brain. I think it, I feel, I do it, I love it.

8. Music

The words to my thoughts when all else fails. An escape from the world around me. Whatever mood I'm in, I always listen to music. Song after song after song there is never a silent moment. It is how I begin to connect with other people; a language all its own.

9. Pets

For as long as I can remember, we've always had a mini zoo at home. Various animals from dogs, cats, rabbits, and even a mouse. Your presence in my life has been fun and therapeutic.

10. Books

Another beautiful escape. Reading truly is a portal into another world. Rain ydays are well spent in the company of a good book.

11. Coffee

Where do I even start? It's the thing that gets me up in the morning and keeps me going. Ever since I was a little girl in church I've always been drinking coffee. However now a days I prefer my coffee dark and strong because let's be real here life is rough. One could say I am the Asian version of Lorelai Gilmore.

12. Travel

The feeling of wanderlust flows deep inside my veins. Adventuring is one of my favorite things in the entire world, and one day I hope to explore it all. From coast to coast, country to country I love discovering new things, trying new foods, and experiencing different cultures. There is so much this world has to offer, and I think if you have the opportunity to experience something new you should take it no second guesses.

13. Missions

Sharing the word and love of God to those who need it truly makes my soul happy. Meeting with people and hearing pieces of their story is one of the most incredible experiences ever. In this field, hope and encouragement are a two way street that continuously intermingle.

14. Worship

Singing praises to my God is something I love to do so much. Now that I'm older I understand more of what I am singing and what it looks like to intentionally worship. I'm not just singing it to sing it, but I am doing it to show love, thankfulness, and to lift up my God. Worship is my main way of connecting with God on what's going on in my life. It's a time for vulnerability and honesty.

15. Photography

Seeing the world through a lens is something I've come to prefer over being in front of it. With a camera I am able to capture a moment and keep it forever. I'm able to see the world in different perspectives and genuinely appreciate all that is.

16. Writing

I beautiful outlet. I struggle with speaking and I am unable to communicate my thoughts to others in an efficient way. Sometimes I'll be able to get the point a crossed and other times I won't. Writing is the perfect middle man. I can think aloud as fast as my hands can type. No overthinking about presentation necessary. I love being able to share my thoughts with others and it's even better when I can communicate my point successfully. Writing is the perfect therapy for life.

17. School

I've never been the one to truly hate school, but nor have I been the one to love it completely. It's been a place for me to come out of my comfort zone, and well I guess learn a thing or two. I can definitely say I prefer preschool and nap-time over college and student debt! I do know and recognize that I am entirely blessed to be able to go to school and pursue a higher education, and I am truly grateful.

18. Boys

Let's just get the elephant out of the room and say "ew". Someone had to say it because everyone thinks it, but anyways this has always been an interesting part of my life. However, I will choose to leave the past behind me and look to the future. I know that God has a great plan for my life, and maybe that plan includes a great guy. I've learned to just let certain situations work themselves out and that's just what I intend to do with this. So, until God puts this great guy in my life I will continue to be happily single. Besides who needs a boy when you have a dog and cats.

19. A Vision

I am a creative thinker. I'm always creating something in the back of my mind: a design, a movie, a scenario or whatever else. My goal, my hope for this next year is to reach out to more people sharing the love of God through my creative means. I want to change how people view themselves. Not as how society deems them as, but as how God created them to be. I want people to know that they are loved and that they are seen and known. That now matter how small they think they are, they are still important and worth it.

So cheers to the new year and new possibilities.

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College As Told By Junie B. Jones

A tribute to the beloved author Barbara Parks.

The Junie B. Jones series was a big part of my childhood. They were the first chapter books I ever read. On car trips, my mother would entertain my sister and me by purchasing a new Junie B. Jones book and reading it to us. My favorite part about the books then, and still, are how funny they are. Junie B. takes things very literally, and her (mis)adventures are hilarious. A lot of children's authors tend to write for children and parents in their books to keep the attention of both parties. Barbara Park, the author of the Junie B. Jones series, did just that. This is why many things Junie B. said in Kindergarten could be applied to her experiences in college, as shown here.

When Junie B. introduces herself hundreds of times during orientation week:

“My name is Junie B. Jones. The B stands for Beatrice. Except I don't like Beatrice. I just like B and that's all." (Junie B. Jones and the Stupid Smelly Bus, p. 1)

When she goes to her first college career fair:

"Yeah, only guess what? I never even heard of that dumb word careers before. And so I won't know what the heck we're talking about." (Junie B. Jones and her Big Fat Mouth, p. 2)

When she thinks people in class are gossiping about her:

“They whispered to each other for a real long time. Also, they kept looking at me. And they wouldn't even stop." (Junie B., First Grader Boss of Lunch, p. 66)

When someone asks her about the library:

“It's where the books are. And guess what? Books are my very favorite things in the whole world!" (Junie B. Jones and the Stupid Smelly Bus, p. 27)

When she doesn't know what she's eating at the caf:

“I peeked inside the bread. I stared and stared for a real long time. 'Cause I didn't actually recognize the meat, that's why. Finally, I ate it anyway. It was tasty...whatever it was." (Junie B., First Grader Boss of Lunch, p. 66)

When she gets bored during class:

“I drew a sausage patty on my arm. Only that wasn't even an assignment." (Junie B. Jones Loves Handsome Warren, p. 18)

When she considers dropping out:

“Maybe someday I will just be the Boss of Cookies instead!" (Junie B., First Grader Boss of Lunch, p. 76)

When her friends invite her to the lake for Labor Day:

“GOOD NEWS! I CAN COME TO THE LAKE WITH YOU, I BELIEVE!" (Junie B. Jones Smells Something Fishy, p. 17)

When her professor never enters grades on time:

“I rolled my eyes way up to the sky." (Junie B., First Grader Boss of Lunch, p. 38)

When her friends won't stop poking her on Facebook:

“Do not poke me one more time, and I mean it." (Junie B. Jones Smells Something Fishy, p. 7)

When she finds out she got a bad test grade:

“Then my eyes got a little bit wet. I wasn't crying, though." (Junie B. Jones and the Stupid Smelly Bus, p. 17)

When she isn't allowed to have a pet on campus but really wants one:


When she has to walk across campus in the dark:

“There's no such thing as monsters. There's no such thing as monsters." (Junie B. Jones Has a Monster Under Her Bed, p. 12)

When her boyfriend breaks her heart:

“I am a bachelorette. A bachelorette is when your boyfriend named Ricardo dumps you at recess. Only I wasn't actually expecting that terrible trouble." (Junie B. Jones Is (almost) a Flower Girl, p. 1)

When she paints her first canvas:

"And painting is the funnest thing I love!" (Junie B. Jones and her Big Fat Mouth, p. 61)

When her sorority takes stacked pictures:

“The biggie kids stand in the back. And the shortie kids stand in the front. I am a shortie kid. Only that is nothing to be ashamed of." (Junie B. Jones Has a Monster Under Her Bed, p. 7)

When she's had enough of the caf's food:

“Want to bake a lemon pie? A lemon pie would be fun, don't you think?" (Junie B. Jones Has a Monster Under Her Bed p. 34)

When she forgets about an exam:

“Speechless is when your mouth can't speech." (Junie B. Jones Loves Handsome Warren, p. 54)

When she finds out she has enough credits to graduate:

“A DIPLOMA! A DIPLOMA! I WILL LOVE A DIPLOMA!" (Junie B. Jones is a Graduation Girl p. 6)

When she gets home from college:

"IT'S ME! IT'S JUNIE B. JONES! I'M HOME FROM MY SCHOOL!" (Junie B. Jones and some Sneaky Peaky Spying p. 20)

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Goodbye School, Hello Real World

I'm ready for ya!


It's starting to hit me.

I've been in school, year after year, since kindergarten. Maybe even pre-school!

Now, I'm about to graduate with my bachelors in communication and I couldn't be more proud of myself. I'll say it. I often sugarcoat it or suppress it but d*mn it. I'm going to applaud myself. It was hard work. It took a lot of motivation, determination, (caffeine), and willpower to get to where I am today. I worked my ass off.

That being said, I can't help but think... What is life without due dates? What is life like without scrambling to turn in an assignment that's due at 11:59 PM? What is life like with actual sleep? Sleep? I don't know her.

Like I keep telling my boyfriend and my parents, I don't have it all figured out. At least not right now. But I will, and I'm in no rush to land my dream job right now. If anything, I want to take a year to myself. I want to travel. I want to sleep in if I d*mn well please! I want to read as many books as I want. I want to write till my fingers fall off (OK, maybe not that).

You get the jist.

I'm free. I can do and be whatever I want. And you know what? That's terrifying.

I'm lost. I've followed this structure for so long. Now what?

I don't have all the answers yet. But for now, at least right at this very moment, I'm so thankful to have been able to receive such an amazing education. And to be able to say I'm graduating with my bachelors in communication at 21 is an accomplishment in itself.

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