I wish i could go through life waiting for a welfare check. I wish i could sit at home and smoke all day while my children are at a daycare facility that the state provides. I wish that with every income tax check, I could by the newest shoes and purse, and spend $1500 on a car that will last about as long as this new bundle I have in my head. I wish I could pay four months rent on an apartment that I will eventually be evicted out of because I couldn't find a job.

I wish I had a man to call mine and vice versa. Even if he couldn't work for some reason or another; the bright side is that I would have someone who would be home with the kids. He would cook and clean and his being home would help me save me on gas because he could drive my car. I wish I could throw away my responsibilities, dreams,and goals all for a man.

I wish for a second we could go back to the days when having a family was a blessing. When a husband and a wife respected each other. The days when a man provided for his family and a woman took pride in herself and her family. Where failure and starting over was the only option when you, not everyone you asked, but when you have done all you can. I wish one day i could tell you in a way that you will understand, That what your doing is wrong. You are wrong for putting his needs before your children. Your wrong for having to work while he sits at home and plays video game. Your wrong for letting you goals and dreams die. Your wrong this is not life, this is your chioce.