There will never be a day in my life that I will fit into a size zero. I will never have pencil thin legs, a washboard stomach, or a tight little butt. But, what I will have is self-confidence.
I struggled with body issues since the second I learned about waistlines and cellulite. I would look in the mirror and suck in my stomach until I couldn’t breathe. Do not even get me started on wearing jeans. I can honestly say that I have never found a pair of jeans that fit me perfectly. My thick thighs, large behind, and small waist forbid me to even think about denim.
I will never be a size zero, but I am finally OK with that. I am okay with the fact that I will probably always have a little bit of cellulite and I am okay with the fact that I’ll probably always have rolls when I sit down. I used to beat myself up over not being stick skinny and I thank God that I stopped hating myself for what my body looked like.
Professional surfer, Bethany Hamilton, told me once that humans are like roses. If you take a petal off of a rose, the rose is still beautiful. So I started applying that to my life and I how I perceived my body. If you take away the fact that I will never be 90 pounds, I will still be beautiful. If you take away the fact that I will always struggle finding a pair of jeans, I am still beautiful.
“One Tree Hill’s” Brooke Davis, made a statement towards the end of the TV series revealed her fashion line with the tag being, “Zero is not a size”. Well, zero is a size but it’s just not mine. I used to step on a scale every day trying to reach my goal of becoming a size smaller until eventually reaching my goal of becoming a size zero. I look back now and I realize that I was in such a dark place that I took all my insecurities out on my body image. Can you blame me? For God’s sake, all women see in the media is how to become prettier and skinnier.
Diet pills, workout plans, and cosmetic surgeries slap us in the face every time we open magazines or turn the TV on. To be confident is to be sexy and there is not one weight loss pill that will make me more confident. So ladies, please embrace your curves and dimples because you are beautiful the way you are. If you are a size zero, embrace it! Every one is unique and the sooner the media realizes that then the sooner women will feel beautiful.
