I don't want to be in a relationship; I don't want to be single, and being anything in between is not appealing to me either.

I personally have nothing against being in a relationship in college, but for right now, I'm at the point in my life where I would rather be on my own. I want to, as cliche as it sounds, "focus on myself." I want to focus on my interests and I want to focus on improving my own life before anyone else's as of right now. Not to say if I find someone that I will be closed off towards it because I am always completely open to whatever comes my way. But, for now, I'm not searching for anyone.

In the same breath, I hate being single in college. The atmosphere of college while being single just isn't for me. I hate being approached when I'm single as someone invades my space and spurs out weird comments as I have to try and think of an excuse to walk away. And, honestly, sometimes the excuses aren't enough. I I hate that too many people, a night isn't a good one, or is "unsuccessful," if they didn't hook up with someone. If they didn't get the guy or girl they wanted while out, then it can affect their mood on the night. On occasion, yeah, it's fun to go out and meet new people, and maybe you hit it off with them at the party. But for me personally, it gets old meeting some stranger and hanging out with them just for the night. Fun or not, in college you likely won't talk that person ever again, and you may not even get their number. I wish I could be single in college and enjoy it, but it's been hard to do that. It isn't as easy as you'd think to just "go out and ignore it" or to "have fun with your friends" when everyone else seems to be focusing on meeting people.

Even more so, I hate having a "thing" with someone. I don't know when this term started, but it's been around for as long as I can remember. I hardly know any times where being a "thing" with someone ever goes right or turns into something better. "We have a thing." Like, come on. Just listen to the sound of that. Wouldn't you rather be "dating" or "seeing where it goes" with someone? Why waste time on someone who you don't like enough to ever me more than a "thing?" Personally, I think a thing is no-thing. If someone doesn't like you enough to call you something,anything, other than a "thing" then I don't see how its worth it.

So here I am stuck in this college relationships limbo. I don't need a relationship, but I sure as hell don't like any of the other options. I wish it could either be easy and fun to be single, or that being in a relationship wasn't so complicated.