Why Music School Just Wasn't For Me

Why Music School Just Wasn't For Me

High school dreams don't always work out, but that's nothing to worry over.
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For half of my high school career, I had my life planned out. I wanted to go to college for Music Therapy, get my degree, go into the world, and be happy in my field of work. I prayed for months and months to get accepted into the music school of my dreams. I was generally new to music, too. Being fresh out of high school with only two years of lessons to back myself up, there was a lot to learn, not only about music, but about life as a musician, and life in general!

When I got accepted to my top music school, I was basically jumping out of my skin. But most of all, I was quite shocked that after only two years, I got into an AMAZING music school. I was going to be studying piano on the same level as those who had been playing for their whole life! How impressive, right? Wrong.

At my huge high school, that now feels small compared to all of those that join me at Temple, being a music major was unheard of! "She plays the piano? How talented!" "Going to school for music? She must have dedicated her whole life to this!" Funny thing is, I didn’t.

One short week into majoring in music, I found myself crying. A LOT.

Temple was great. I loved Philly. What was going wrong? I was crying at the piano when I used to look forward to sitting there for hours. I was dreading all of my classes when at one point all that I wanted to do was music and only music.

It happens, though.

Not all of us are cut out for our high school dreams.

Now I'm the former music kid that sits through anatomy wondering where the hell my head was when all I could think about was music. My eyes have been opened to so many amazing new subjects, careers, and majors. I feel like I've missed out on so much.

Picking what you want to do for the rest of your life is not easy. I had my heart set on my life as a musician, but here I am, a brand new undecided major. I don’t regret this, either. I’m so thankful for all of the opportunities that being a musician has offered me. I’ve made countless amounts of friends in my past few years. I’ve learned about music in its truest, rawest form. I’ve seen how music can heal. And, above all, I’ve given myself a challenge, accepted the challenge, and found out (on my own) that it wasn’t for me.

Now, I’m lazy...compared to when I spent hours at the piano. Now, I can sit in bed and work on assignments that have nothing to do with touching a piano or reserving practice time.

The fact that I pulled myself together in two years to get accepted into an amazing music program is an achievement to myself. Although I didn’t go further with this dream, I’ve shown myself that if I want something bad enough, I can achieve it.

I'm thankful for the music school here at Temple and the opportunity that I was given. The programs and teachers are amazing and I'll support every single music student for the rest of my college life because I know that it isn't easy. Next time you see a music major, appreciate what they do. Music isn't as easy as it is perceived to be.

I guess what I'm getting at is if you’re unhappy, find a way to cut the negative energy out of your life and make yourself happy. Why pay (a lot of) tuition to earn a degree that makes you never want to work a day in your life after college? Find what you love and be that; even if you’ve been training for years. In this case, my time was not wasted, but I learned lessons that I will carry with me for the rest of my life.

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No matter how old you are, you probably identify at least a little with either the arts or athletics. Growing up, most of us were either the 'cool' kids who typically played some type of sport or the not-so-cool kids that were interested in the arts. A simple question would be, why can't someone be both? Well, it's possible, but do the in-betweeners ever feel completely at home in one setting? This is an issue that tends to extend to college, and a point was brought up to me not long ago regarding the social gap between athletes and other students. In order to eradicate this issue, we must first understand where it stems from.

All in all, it seems to me that the divide begins in schools. Schools are the first places where children are beginning to be socialized, so the most impact tends to be made there. If schools are teaching children to look up to older high school athletes, as most do, it is almost certain that most children will aspire to be a part of that culture when they get to high school. Sure, some students will want to join the arts because they notice an affinity towards them, but some might still look the other way because of what they have been taught to admire.

Once in high school, perhaps even more impact is made. Students are discovering who they are and what their place in the world around them is. The way that their high school treats them means everything because that's typically their world for four long years.

From what I gather, the majority of high schools put athletes on a pedestal, letting them get away with more than others, as well as rewarding them more than others.

There are several problems with this, the first being that other students are placed in the background. Students who take part in the arts in school are often held to a typical standard, where they must follow all of the rules with little leniency and are not as recognized for their achievements as the athletes. However this does not only negatively affect students in the arts, but athletes as well. It might seem a little odd to claim that they are negatively affected while given all the privileges, but it is true to a certain extent.

For example, these athletes will not be adequately prepared for life after high school. After years of being told how wonderful they are and being exempt from average rules of behavior, these students are likely to graduate high school and be shocked at how they are expected to act and how people no longer hand them special privileges.

Both students involved in the arts and athletics are hurt here as well because they are all missing out on the crucial socialization of one group with another that may have different interests.

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This divide is also perpetuated by the tendency of school districts of all types to overfund athletics and underfund the arts. While the funding of the school may seem like a thing that wouldn't really affect the social lives of students, it creates a socioeconomic divide of sorts between groups. The arts tend to feel smaller and recognize the divide easily in funding since they face the hardships of it.

If funding was appropriately allocated between programs, this monetary divide could be quickly solved. Perhaps in the absence of the socioeconomic divide, tackling the more social aspect might be easier.

It is so important to address the situation early in elementary, middle, and high schools because it may carry on to university. At the university level, it may be easier to eradicate the divide since most students seem to be on the same page. However, it can still seem intimidating to approach someone of a social group that you have been conditioned to feel uncomfortable around. The divide is unfair for both parties, and the most a student can really do is to step out of their comfort zone and start a conversation with someone they don't know. It starts with the individual, so be kind to others and remember that there is growth in discomfort.

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