Makeup Made Me Feel More Ugly Than Pretty

Makeup Made Me Feel More Ugly Than Pretty

“I would rather get a late pass for first period than to go to school with no makeup on.”

Don’t get me wrong, I love makeup. I am one of those girls that gets super excited if I get a Sephora gift card for my birthday and I am addicted to watching makeup tutorials on Instagram and YouTube. Not only that, but I love buying new products and trying them out and I love the whole process of putting on makeup.

However, I went down an unhealthy path with my makeup routine that I believe many girls go down. I started to wear makeup not because I genuinely enjoyed the process of putting it on, but because I began to prefer myself with it on my face. I began to convince myself that I was more beautiful with makeup on and that I needed it every time I left my house.

My unhealthy relationship with makeup made me question my true beauty from my sophomore year of high school all the way to senior year graduation. I distinctly remember thinking to myself, “I would rather get a late pass for first period than to go to school with no makeup on.” At the time, I didn’t realize how sad of a thought that was. What it even more upsetting is the idea that so many girls go through these exact same feelings. So many girls feel like they need makeup because without it they do not look like the Instagram models we all scroll past every day. This mentality is what shifts the perception of ourselves in our minds.

We begin to look for compliments about our contour and red lip, rather than our freckles and natural rosy cheeks. We begin to add more and more products to our makeup routine because now the 7 products we used before are simply not enough. We begin to apologize for how we look if we ended up not having enough time to put makeup on before an event. And by we, I mean me. I did all those things because I felt like my natural beauty was not enough. What is crazy is that no one has ever told any of this to me; this is all what I had been telling myself. Perhaps this is the root to the issue.

As humans, we are extremely hard on ourselves. We make ourselves believe that we need to change how we look and dress and act to make ourselves feel better. This may be why our close friends are often the people in our life telling us that we are perfect while we spend all our time convincing them why we aren’t. To be happy in life, sometimes you just have to let all that negativity towards yourself go. That’s what I had to do when it came to makeup.

Instead of constantly picking apart what I didn’t like about my face and finding the solution for that with makeup, I decided to embrace those imperfections. How you may ask? I started to internalize the compliments my friends and family gave to me. Instead of brushing them off like they were too good to be true, I embraced them. This simple lifestyle change made me not only begin to love myself for how I am naturally, but also made me go throughout my day with more confidence.

If there is one thing that I have learned from my journey to embrace myself naturally it is that there is absolutely nothing wrong with wearing makeup. In fact, I still love it just as much. The key is that I now know that I do not need it to feel beautiful. I know that I don’t need it to feel confident. And I am honestly really proud of that.

Now don’t get me wrong, I am not suddenly one of those people who is 100% secure in who I am because I believe that those types of people are few and far between. Accepting myself is a daily journey; one in which I sometimes I have good days and sometimes have bad ones too. I say this to simply emphasize that whether your insecurity is makeup or something completely different, self-improvement is a battle you are forced to fight alone. And although difficult, I urge you keep fighting that voice in your head that tells you that you aren’t pretty enough or smart enough or skinny enough. That voice doesn’t matter because, in the end, you are only what you allow yourself to believe you are. So stop listening to that negative voice in your head! You are beautiful, you are intelligence, and you are strong enough to keep fighting that insecurity, no matter how many times it tries to get you down.

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8 Reasons Why My Dad Is the Most Important Man In My Life

Forever my number one guy.

Growing up, there's been one consistent man I can always count on, my father. In any aspect of my life, my dad has always been there, showing me unconditional love and respect every day. No matter what, I know that my dad will always be the most important man in my life for many reasons.

1. He has always been there.

Literally. From the day I was born until today, I have never not been able to count on my dad to be there for me, uplift me and be the best dad he can be.

2. He learned to adapt and suffer through girly trends to make me happy.

I'm sure when my dad was younger and pictured his future, he didn't think about the Barbie pretend pageants, dressing up as a princess, perfecting my pigtails and enduring other countless girly events. My dad never turned me down when I wanted to play a game, no matter what and was always willing to help me pick out cute outfits and do my hair before preschool.

3. He sends the cutest texts.

Random text messages since I have gotten my own cell phone have always come my way from my dad. Those randoms "I love you so much" and "I am so proud of you" never fail to make me smile, and I can always count on my dad for an adorable text message when I'm feeling down.

4. He taught me how to be brave.

When I needed to learn how to swim, he threw me in the pool. When I needed to learn how to ride a bike, he went alongside me and made sure I didn't fall too badly. When I needed to learn how to drive, he was there next to me, making sure I didn't crash.

5. He encourages me to best the best I can be.

My dad sees the best in me, no matter how much I fail. He's always there to support me and turn my failures into successes. He can sit on the phone with me for hours, talking future career stuff and listening to me lay out my future plans and goals. He wants the absolute best for me, and no is never an option, he is always willing to do whatever it takes to get me where I need to be.

6. He gets sentimental way too often, but it's cute.

Whether you're sitting down at the kitchen table, reminiscing about your childhood, or that one song comes on that your dad insists you will dance to together on your wedding day, your dad's emotions often come out in the cutest possible way, forever reminding you how loved you are.

7. He supports you, emotionally and financially.

Need to vent about a guy in your life that isn't treating you well? My dad is there. Need some extra cash to help fund spring break? He's there for that, too.

8. He shows me how I should be treated.

Yes, my dad treats me like a princess, and I don't expect every guy I meet to wait on me hand and foot, but I do expect respect, and that's exactly what my dad showed I deserve. From the way he loves, admires, and respects me, he shows me that there are guys out there who will one day come along and treat me like that. My dad always advises me to not put up with less than I deserve and assures me that the right guy will come along one day.

For these reasons and more, my dad will forever be my No. 1 man. I love you!

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12 Tips Before Getting Your First Eyelash Extensions

I know you are in the middle of making your appointment, but here are a few pointers.


If you are like me, you are super hesitant about trying new things in the beauty realm. I have finally tried lash extensions and can easily say I am obsessed. 10/10 recommend! If you are considering getting yours done, here are a few pointers!

1. Shower before your appointment.

This seems logical, but I wasn't aware. Luckily, I did shower before my appointment and wasn't shocked when my lash tech said, "don't get them wet for 24 hours."

2. Not all extensions are over the top. There are lash extensions for EVERYONE. 

I was super worried my lashes were going to be crazy over the top and I would look crazy during my runs. I asked my lash tech and she gave me a set of natural lashes. You get to pick the style of lashes you want! You can get them for fuller volume or just a natural look. There is a style of lashes for everyone!

3. Yes, they are SO much better than mascara and strip lashes.

I was already a firm hater of mascara, so lash extensions didn't have to work hard to win me over. As for strip lashes, I use to love putting them on for a night out or date night. It seemed as if a makeup look was not complete without them. Now, I wear less makeup on a night out because I feel as if my lashes really just pull the simplest of looks together.

4. Not all lash techs will charge you an arm and a leg.

One of my favorite nail salons offers lash extensions, STARTING at $100. Luckily, if you live near a college campus, the chances are high that a student is certified to do them and charges well under $100. I get mine done for $60 and leave happy with the work done every time.

5. You can go bare-faced and still feel flawless.

I have never woken up and felt so gorgeous right after stumbling out of bed. Lash extensions really give you an extra boost of confidence in feeling like you don't even want to bother with putting on makeup for the day.

6. You will need to wash your face in the sink, not the shower. 

You can get your lashes wet, but water coming forcefully out of a showerhead directly onto your lashes is not good for them. Makeup wipes and a careful face cleaning in the sink will take care of all your facial needs while avoiding causing damage to your lashes. I still use face masks when I have mine done!

7. Check the ingredients in your makeup removing products. 

To remove makeup, I LOVE using coconut oil. If you have lash extensions you should NOT use coconut oil. In fact, when your down to the last few lashes and are ready for them to come off, use coconut oil on a cotton ball and gently rub it along your lash line. Certain oils breakdown the glue used for lash extensions, so be aware of them before using them on your eye makeup.

8. Some people will truly believe they are your natural lashes. 

Here are some responses for their inquiries:

"I wish."

"Lash extensions, 10/10 recommend."

"I woke up like this."

9. You will need to sleep pretty. 

I have a tendency to sleep on my face. A tendency which I soon broke after getting lash extensions. You will have to learn to stay on your side or lay on your back so you don't rub all of your extensions out in the night.

WARNING: Be extra cautious on a night out where adult beverages were consumed. Ruining your lashes by drunkenly rubbing or sleeping on your face may cause heavy lash-loss.

10. They last about two to three weeks.

I have found that mine stay in pretty thick up until about 2.5 weeks. If you are careful, they could definitely still look flawless pushing week three.

11. They aren't damaging to your real lashes.

As long as you go to a licensed lash tech and aren't rubbing your face or pulling your lashes out, your natural lashes are safe and sound!

12. Once you get them done, you'll be going back for more.

It's not an addiction. And if it is, I don't think there is an issue to being addicted to feeling great about your lashes!

Making your lash appointment now? I figured.

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