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Sorry for the f***ed up sales pitch, but that's what it's like. For people dealing with PTSD, what happened today is just as fresh as what happened yesterday. Bobby deals with the pain, the guilt, and the anger every single day. But add everything else to the mix.
You've got OCD, day to day interaction, grades, girls, work, and everything else all while dealing with your past mistakes. All while thinking about it constantly.
"Why the f*** didn't I do anything," he'll ask himself, even though deep down he knows he was only doing what he was told. He knows deep down, he was just trying to be a good boy. But what he didn't realize was that he needed to do what he thought was right. He needed to live for himself, not for other people. "I found that shit out too late," Bobby says.
I've said this before and I'll say it again: Bobby's angry. Not only at himself, but towards everyone from back then. All of the people that ever f***ed with him, all of the people that saw a good person get bullied and not do a damn thing about it.
"It seems like only bad things happen to good people," Bobby's said before. "Those same motherf***ers that bullied me are probably off somewhere getting a blowjob while I'm over here suffering. Why the fuck didn't I beat the shit out of those f***ers when I got the chance? Why the f*** didn't I?"
"All I want is to go back in time and beat the everlovin' shit out of anyone that's ever crossed me. Anyone that's talked shit about me and thought they could get away with it. Anyone that thought they could put their f***in hands on me.
Just talking about that shit makes me realize how much I want that. How much it feels like I need that. I need to see those motherf****ers on that restroom floor as I beat the shit out of them and to send a message to any other motherf***er that wants a piece of me. I know I can't go back in time and change what happened, but I'll be damned if I ever let that shit happen again. I'll be damned."
