Maybe this is a problem that only I have had to deal with, but ever since I left for my first day of college I have struggled to feel at home anywhere. I am growing up and moving into adulthood. For this reason, I do not feel that I should truly call the place my parents live home. But at the same time, I don’t feel like I’m totally ready to be on my own. So when I am on my own I don’t feel like I am at home. I am in some sort of in-between stage.
Where is my home? I have been trying to answer this question for myself for some time now. All that I know for sure is that the answer is not an easy one, so I’m still trying to figure it out. In my attempt to figure out the answer, I’ve asked myself a lot of questions like these ones:
1. Where do I feel most comfortable?
2. Why do I feel comfortable here?
3. Where do I feel most uncomfortable?
4. Why do I feel uncomfortable here?
5. Who do I enjoy being around?
6. How do I enjoy spending my time?
7. What would make me feel like I belonged here?
8. Is there somewhere I would rather be?
From a Biblical perspective, there should never really be one place that we call home. Home is wherever God calls us to be. Throughout the Bible, we see that God has many people leave their homes and go somewhere else - to places they are completely unfamiliar with. This happened to Abraham, Joseph, Moses, even Jesus had no place to lay his head (Luke 9:58). I think that God does this on purpose. God doesn’t want us to get too comfortable with any one place on earth because our true home is in heaven with Him. God wants us to look forward to this fellowship.
Our forever home is in heaven, but we are allowed to find places to call home on earth. What I am learning is that the place I call home can be anywhere I want it to be. I get to have a say in it. My home is both where God calls me to be and where I choose it to be. Home is the place where I belong.