Who are you? What are you living for? Who are you living for? And why are you here? These are the questions I ask myself every day. College has put my perspective on life in a whole new lens. I had everything figured out prior to my first year of college. My degree, my school, my goals, my career, my love life and myself. I tried my best to make the right moves in order to sound more impressive on my college applications. I thought I had myself figured out. I thought I knew everything so I could feel more secure starting college. I came into college headstrong, looking fear in its eyes and challenging every obstacle that came my way. I was fearless. Until I encountered something that truly knocked me off my feet. My identity. I started to constantly second guess myself about my real purpose coming to college such as, "Should I be doing this? What if college isn't for me? Do I really have my life together to have a successful four years?" It was in those moments when I realized nothing could ever truly prepare you for possibly one of the biggest changes in your life. And that's OK.
Not every lesson is taught in a classroom. Learning to accept things that are hard to sometimes grasp is what pushes us to become a better version of ourselves. I chose the perfect school that offered the right criteria for my major, so I immediately said yes. I forgot to factor in my social life, financial situation and overall happiness when making this decision. As a result, I had to reevaluate exactly where I was heading with myself and my career. I was lucky enough to settle down and find a school that offered everything I wanted. However, picking the right school for me was not even close to half the battle of discovering who I truly am and what I am meant for. I am still learning about who I am every day. My taste in music, men and food has altered ever so slightly. And that's OK. Not knowing where I will end up is OK. Not having every single moment of my life planned out is OK. Living, breathing and appreciating experiences in the now is OK. Life is meant for learning. You will never stop changing. You will never stop learning. So don't worry, you won't always be prepared, because not every lesson is taught in a classroom. Sometimes you learn the hard way.
