What I Miss Most About Performing

What I Miss Most About Performing

I just wish I had known then that it might've been the end.

I never realized how much I would miss performing until the spring after my most recent major production. I was acting in a small one-act, the kind that's too embarrassing to tell your friends about because it's cheesy and silly and difficult to explain. Though I couldn't bring myself to fall in love with the script, my passion for theatre was immediately reignited. And though I denied it then, it broke my heart to see the show end. I was pulled back into my post-show depression, which can best be defined as the gloomy feeling a performer soaks in after the final curtain falls. My evenings felt empty, my playlists were comprised of show-tunes and soundtracks, and I binged Glee until I felt normal again. You would think that after four plays, five musicals, and two stints as a member of set crew, it would be easier to adjust to life-after-it-ends. But if anything, it only gets harder.

I miss everything about the stage. The stress that fuels tech week. The late evenings and early mornings spent at rehearsal. The laughter and tears that always come from cast bonding sessions. The feeling of the hot, white, electric lights on your face as you step into the silence of a full audience. The applause as the curtains glide across the stage. The madness of quick changes, the hushed mumbles of actors looking for lost props, the awkward drop of a beat while you wonder whether you've missed your cue, and the sweet relief that follows when you hit the mark. I miss telling stories with my voice and body. I miss the transformation that blurs the line between character and girl. I miss finding a friendship with the role I've taken on.

I miss the escape of it all. The freedom of existing as someone else, somewhere else, with possibilities limited only by your own interpretation of the story.

Before the realities of my future dawned on me, I promised myself that I would someday play a role in a large scale production. Though I now know my time to do so becomes limited with every step I take towards my career, I would give anything for one more chance on the stage. It's been two years since my last major show, and my greatest fear is that it really was my last show ever. I've been trying not to grieve over the sudden loss I'm experiencing, because really, what's there to be upset about? I had my shot, I played some parts, and all good things come to an end.

I just wished I had known then that it might've been the end.

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35 Major Life Facts According To Nick Miller

"All booze is good booze, unless it's weak booze."

Fact: If you watch "New Girl," you love Nick Miller.

You can't help it. He's an adorable, lovable mess of a man and you look forward to seeing him and his shenanigans each week. While living the infamous and incomparable life of Nick Miller, and obviously Julius Pepperwood— he has learned many valuable laws of the land. And, although Nick refuses to learn anything from anyone besides his mysterious, old Asian friend Tran, he does have a few lessons he'd like to teach us.

Here are 35 facts of life according to 'Nick Milla Nick Milla':

1. Drinking keeps you healthy.

"I'm not gonna get sick. No germ can live in a body that is 65% beer."

2. Dinosaurs never existed.

"I don't believe dinosaurs existed. I've seen the science. I don't believe it."

3. A paper bag is a bank.

"A bank is just a paper bag but with fancier walls."

4. Having sex is similar to delivering mail.

"I'm like a mailman, except instead of mail it's hot sex that I deliver."

5. Moonwalking is a foolproof way to get out of any awkward situation.

Jess (about Nick): "Now he won't even talk to me. I saw him this morning and he just panic moonwalked away from me. He does that sometimes."

6. Using a movie reference is also a great way.

Cece: "Come on, get up!"

Nick: "No, I don't dance. I'm from that town in "Footloose."

7. There's no reason to wash towels.

Nick: "I don’t wash the towel. The towel washes me. Who washes a towel?"

Schmidt: "You never wash your towel?"

Nick: "What am I gonna do? Wash the shower next? Wash a bar of soap?"

8. Exes are meant to be avoided at all costs (especially if/unless they're Caroline)

"I don't deal with exes, they're part of the past. You burn them swiftly and you give their ashes to Poseidon."

9. IKEA furniture is not as intimidating as it looks.

"I'm building you the dresser. I love this stuff. It's like high-stakes LEGOs."

10. You don't need forks if you have hands.

Jess: "That's gross. Get a fork, man."

Nick: "I got two perfectly good forks at the end of my arms!"

11. Sex has a very specific definition.

"It's not sex until you put the straw in the coconut."

12. Doors are frustrating.

"I will push if I want to push! Come on! I hate doors!"

13. All booze is good booze.

"Can I get an alcohol?"

14. ...unless it's weak booze.

"Schmidt, that is melon flavored liquor! That is 4-proof! That is safe to drink while you're pregnant!"

15. Writers are like pregnant women.

Jess: "You know what that sound is? It's the sound of an empty uterus."

Nick: "I can top that easily. I'm having a hard time with my zombie novel."

Jess: "Are you really comparing a zombie novel to my ability to create life?"

Nick: "I'm a writer, Jess. We create life."

16. All bets must be honored.

"There is something serious I have to tell you about the future. The name of my first-born child needs to be Reginald VelJohnson. I lost a bet to Schmidt."

17. Adele's voice is like a combination of Fergie and Jesus.

"Adele is amazing."

18. Beyoncé is extremely trustworthy.

"I'd trust Beyoncé with my life. We be all night."

19. Fish, on the other hand, are not.

“Absolutely not. You know I don’t trust fish! They breathe water. That's crazy!"

20. Bar mitzvahs are terrifying.

Schmidt: "It's a bar mitzvah!"

Nick: "I am NOT watching a kid get circumcised!"

21. ...so are blueberries.

Jess: "So far, Nick Miller's list of fears is sharks, tap water, real relationships..."

Nick: "And blueberries."

22. Take your time with difficult decisions. Don't be rash.

Jess: "You care about your burritos more than my children, Nick?"

Nick: "You're putting me in a tough spot!"

23. Getting into shape is not easy.

"I mean, I’m not doing squats or anything. I’m trying to eat less donuts."

24. We aren't meant to talk about our feelings.

"If we needed to talk about feelings, they would be called talkings."

25. We're all a little bit too hard on ourselves.

"The enemy is the inner me."

26. Freezing your underwear is a good way to cool off.

"Trust me, I'm wearing frozen underpants right now and I feel amazing. I'm gonna grab some old underpants and put a pair into the freezer for each of you."

27. Public nudity is normal.

"Everbody has been flashed countless times."

28. Alcohol is a cure-all.

"You treat an outside wound with rubbing alcohol. You treat an inside wound with drinking alcohol."

29. Horses are aliens.

"I believe horses are from outer-space."

30. Turtles should actually be called 'shell-beavers.'

Jess: "He calls turtles 'shell-beavers."

Nick: "Well, that's what they should be called."

31. Trench coats are hot.

"This coat has clean lines and pockets that don't quit, and it has room for your hips. And, when I wear it, I feel hot to trot!"

32. Sparkles are too.

"Now, my final bit of advice, and don't get sensitive on this, but you've got to change that top it's terrible and you've got to throw sparkles on. Sparkles are in. SPARKLES ARE IN."

33. Introspection can lead to a deeper knowing of oneself.

"I'm not convinced I know how to read. I've just memorized a lot of words."

34. It's important to live in the moment.

"I know this isn't gonna end well but the middle part is gonna be awesome."

35. Drinking makes you cooler.

Jess: "Drinking to be cool, Nick? That's not a real thing."

Nick: "That's the only thing in the world I know to be true."

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15 Great '90s Cartoons That Every Adult Should Watch

All of these shows shouldn't be forgotten, so children now, should watch them. They are timeless classics!


No matter the year, cartoons hold a special place in everyone's hearts while they grow up. Especially those made in the 90s and early 2000s because they were the most interesting to say the least.

1. Rugrats



This is the misadventures of four babies and their snotty older cousin as they face the things in life they don't understand. It reveals the world in a babys perspective and how they perceive things.

2. Ren and Stimpy



Ren, a psychotic Chihuahua, and Stimpson J. Cat, a dimwitted Manx cat who goes by the nickname Stimpy, have a host of unusual adventures.

3. Rocko's Modern Life



Rocko is a wallaby who has moved from his native home in Australia to the United States. But life in the United States isn't as great as he had hoped it would be, since he is surrounded by annoying neighbors, tons of laundry, and life's issues in general.

4. The Magic School Bus



An eccentric school-teacher, Ms. Frizzle, takes her class on wondrous educational field trips with the help of a magical school bus that can morph into any size and shape.

5. Gargoyles



A clan of heroic night creatures pledge to protect modern New York City as they did in Scotland one thousand years earlier.

6. Aaah!!! Real Monsters



The show takes us through the struggles of life as a child monster. Three monster friends are studying how to scare humans in school.

7. Hey Arnold!



Young Arnold lives with his grandparents in the city of Hillwood. The fourth grader with a football-shaped head takes on adventures to help solve classmates' problems or come up with solutions to his own predicaments.

8. Freakazoid



Washington, D.C. has a new defender: Freakazoid. The comedy and insanity never stop when he's around, and he's only one of the weird heroes of the series.

9. Pinky And The Brain



Chaos occurrs with a genius mouse and his stupid sidekick who try to conquer the world each night.

10. Dexter's Laboratory



Dexter, a child genius whips up dazzling, world-saving inventions in his secret laboratory while his big sister Dee Dee frequently wrecks his experiments.

11. Recess



This cartoon shows tales of a group of good friends during breaks in elementary school, as they grow up, relate to each other, and have brushes with authority.

12. Johnny Bravo



Johnny Bravo has no shortage of confidence, and he's certain that all women want him. With his big hair and tight black clothes, he's known for his karate chops, accompanied by the sound of a bullwhip.

13. The Powerpuff Girls



Accidentally created in a lab by the Professor, superpowered sisters Blossom, Bubbles and Buttercup regularly save Townsville from evildoers.

14. Catdog



Conjoined siblings, one a dog, the other a cat, deal with the unique challenges of their lives. Cat, the more clever of the two, frequently has a plan or a scheme in the works, and more often than not, that scheme goes awry. While dog, is content doing just about anything, like chasing garbage trucks.

15. Ed Edd n Eddy



Like any boys trying to survive their youth, Ed, Edd and Eddy are as clueless about girls as everything else. Eddy may not be the brains of the trio, but he's always scheming and dragging his buddies along with him.

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